So upset! I think I messed up royally and lh surge either today or tomorrow. Advice needed please.
Ugh I'm so upset with myself! I was doing so well last week. My willpower to not eat sweets delivered to my office was amazing! I was so proud of myself. I had lost my period weight gain. Now I'm about to ovulate. Probably going to get my lh surge either today of tomorrow bc I'm already seeing some ewcm during a BM (sorry tmi). So since I was doing so amazingly well last week with diet on Friday night, I had my company holiday party which I tried to eat ok at. I had few sips of cosmopolitan drink which I never drink alcohol so I'm a lightweight. Was buzzed off 10 small sips. No joke. Lol. Then I didn't eat anything being passed around at cocktail hour. So was doing great! Then at dinner time I orderd filet mignon (couldn't resist bc haven't had steak in like 7 months)! So only ate literally like a quarter of it. My DH ate all of his and mine. The serving wasn't large at all. Sides were potato cooked in a lemon sauce and spinach in lemon sauce (upscale Greek restaurant). So I wasn't upset with what I ate bc I barely had any of the steak and sides I ate we're real small. But this is where it gets bad! For dessert I had small piece of baklava and a slice of walnut cake. It's like they were just calling my name! Ugh then yesterday I baked Xmas cookies. Wishing I would have just skipped it this year but its a family tradition for me. So what happens? While baking I'm shoving chocolate chip cookie dough in my mouth! I barely had any cooked cookies bc I was just so ill by the time I was done baking them! So my meal yesterday consisted of a plain bagel with strawberry cream cheese at noon with like half cup of coffee with non dairy creamer and then two hours later started baking and it lasted for like 3 hours! No dinner bc I was just so upset with myself! I get on the scale this morning to see I put on 1 1/2 pounds! I'm worried about attempting this month bc I know weight gain sways boy! I also feel like I can't wait another month bc I'm almost 40 and haven't gotten preggo in past 3 mos!
I guess I just needed to share my concerns. So wishing I didn't bake these darn cookies! I'm so not touching them anymore. DH is eating them. I'd rather him eat them than me bc who knows if what he eats really affects him as much as myself. Seems like diet affects woman more from what I'm getting and he won't cooperate anyway.
Just wish I wasn't going to ovulate so close to christmas. This stinks! Does it sound like I messed up real bad? Especially right before waiting for lh surge and already seeing ewcm during BM. Also does sugar affect cm so quickly considering i started seeing it on late friday with bm? ugh I'm just so sick over this! Any advice is appreciated. Thank you.