I think im ok.

I honesty think if at the end of this I get a 5th boy I will be ok. I have been to one end of the spectrum wanting a baby girl to the point of delirium... Pure obsession, and then the other extreme and not caring at all saying thing like "I wouldn't know what to do if I had a girl" to prepare myself for GD. I've had my hopes up really high, and other times my guard up even harder.
The truth is is do care, I want to give it the best shot I can as a natural sway. I may even have some GD if my away is unsuccessful.
But I love my boys so much and when I see them together growing up together, interacting already... It's so awesome. Having any baby to multiply that awesomeness is really all I truly want deep down.
That's all :) just a positive post to end the day xoxo


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