Can't stop ending up here

I have nothing new to report. Just going crazy and driving myself crazy waiting for my June 9th anatomy scan. I'm so scared to hear 'boy'. Most of the gals in my DD group are having girls even the 2 who swayed boy an I am just positive it won't be me getting my girl. I keep hearing that what others have doesn't affect you, but how can things not even out somewhere?! They just have to. I am so mad at myself for asking about the nub at my 12 week scan. It just gave me false hope. Whenever my DH brings up girls names I get sad and choked up. I can't even entertain the idea that we might have a girl. I'll just be too disappointed when it isn't.
I was so at peace with a boy before I was told 'girl nub' . Now it truly feels like starting ALL OVER! It's even hard to talk about the boy name we had picked out cuz I don't want to live in the reality of 3 boys yet.
I posted in my DD Group about this obnoxious gal on FB who just announced her 2nd is a girl. Now she has the perfect pigeon pair for her always and constant perfect life! Ugh! It was really hard to take.
I keep thinking there must be a way to get in for a scan sooner than the 9th but in reality there really isn't.
Just defeated and sad. I want a girl so badly. Makes me nervous for the strain on my bank account and sanity of 3 kids already and not having my DD makes it seem unbearable:(

Sorry you are having a tough time waiting! I really hope its is a girl!

Do they offer early gender scans where you live? Last time I got one at 16wks (although I cried after because it wasn't the result I wanted) but it was nice having the extra time to get my head around having a 2nd boy.

Hang in there EmileeJane. This is the hardest part by far. Once you know the gender you can deal with it.

Just a word of caution, if this is DS3, I STRONGLY recommend not telling people you can't tolerate stupid comments from. I have mentioned before that if their is one thing I would do differently when I had DD3, (and GD took over my brain), it is keeping the gender to myself so I could cope with the loss of a dream. My plan was to do the same this time around if it was another girl.

It is highly possible that you have a little girl on the way. Until then do what you have to do to get by. I was a mess by the time I got close to my gender scan with this baby. I really don't know what I could have done differently to have coped any better than I did. I did go to the gender scan by myself, which was the absolute best thing for me.

Hang in there, stay busy, and know that you aren't alone in how you are feeling. Many of us have been there, sometimes more than once!!

Big hugs mama!

Pinkbean thanks for always being there! I certainly could use the hugs. Thanks♡♡
Purple I honestly don't know if they offer early scans around her I live in a large city albeit not the hippest most cutting edge city. I'll check it out. But DH would have a heart attack if I spent a lot of $$ on something like that. Although I don't even know if they have them, I'll check it out.
And I will totally lose it if it's DS3! I've been feeling so low and want to cry but can't and I'm thinking the flood gates will be open for the rest of the pregnancy after the 9th.
Adia, I absolutely won't be telling people when we find out what we're having if it's a boy. Most people(family & close friends) don't even know when our scan date is. There is no way I can handle the 'general public's' rude comments about my family makeup. I work in a salon and will not be telling clients or random friends. It's all to much to take.
And I was thinking I may be in a straight jacket by the time the 9th gets here! Glad to know you were a mess and are unsure as to how you would've changed it.
Thanks for sharing in my distress gals, it's nice to know I'm not alone.

thinking of you and hoping you hear girl on the 9th, either way we will be here for you. xxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxx

I totally understand and I'm not even pregnant yet. 2 boys and I'm now desperate for a girl to complete our family. This will be our final child regardless of what we get so the pressure is so intense!


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Same here. Im not pregnant yet but the desire of having a girl is so strong. No.3 is my last and even if it turn out to be a boy, there is no way I can go for no.4 financially and emotionally.

There are days when I'm so confident with my sway yet there are days I'm worried that sway is not guarantee.
My country here does not allow to IVF with preferred gender. Hence, swaying is the only hope for me.

this feeling is suck and I really hope I can get it over soon. It has been mentally torture me for 3years and turn worst when I knew my bff got her girl in Apr 2014.