Bfp (but paranoid!) - unhappy update page 3

Well we got our BFP over the weekend. I was sooooo scared of testing I put it off until 15dpo, LOL. Did a bunch of internet cheapie tests that were positive and got a nice dark FRER this morning (17dpo).

My clinic had me come in for a beta and prog test, and they said my RE was happy with the numbers! And yet I can't help but still fret that something's still going to go wrong. I even questioned my beta number, even though my RE was pleased and he's not at all the type to sugarcoat. So really I should be reassured, and yet I'm fretting!

I know why though - 3 years of trying, an early loss, having infertile friends and hearing so many sad endings, and spending time on infertility forums has all made me very cynical. I'm having a hard time being excited this time, I keep expecting things to go south! I guess after our difficulties with our HT try it has made me feel like we're fated to never have it end well.

Well at least I know that I *can* get pregnant again, LOL. I was really starting to wonder after almost 3 years of not even a BFP. So the plumbing still works!

LacePrincess I think it's natural to worry & fret, I know I do!!

Huge Huge Congratulations on your BFP & on your good numbers ;) I'm so happy for you.

Lots of sticky bean and happy & healthy pregnancy wishes to you!! I hope you start enjoying being pregnant really soon xx

OMG! This is the best news ever!!! I'm SO happy for you!

I understand how nervous you are. Hang in there sweetie! This is meant to be!

I seriously can't stop smiling!!


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Huge congratulations!!

congratulations! Think happy thoughts!

Aww, congrats on your BFP! I understand your worry - it took ages for me to conceive then had a couple of chemicals. I decided not to even bother getting my hopes up until I saw the heartbeat for myself. But he's here, 13 months old and fighting fit! FX for a h&h 9 months x

Great news! How many follicles did you see on u/s before trigger? Did you use a trigger? Congrats!

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LacePrincess I think it's natural to worry & fret, I know I do!!

Huge Huge Congratulations on your BFP & on your good numbers ;) I'm so happy for you.

Lots of sticky bean and happy & healthy pregnancy wishes to you!! I hope you start enjoying being pregnant really soon xx

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Congrats to you too! :)

I dunno about 'good' numbers, lol. I keep googling and getting depressed my beta number isn't sky high. Though my RE seemed more pleased with my prog number, they said he looks for a good prog number because if it was a chemical the prog number would be the first to slip. I do realize that bhcg is more about doubling rates, but I turned down the offer to redo a bhcg in a week because, well, if it's not meant to be more tests isn't gonna change that.

Gah I think my problem is I've just been spending FAR too long on infertility boards so now I know far too much about how it can all go wrong! I'm not sure I'm going to be able to enjoy anything until at least the first scan.

Yay!! Fab news lace!! Sooo happy for you xxx

Congrats Lace :) I am kind of 'ignoring' the fact that I am 6wks - not going to get too excited until I have the Harmonie test results in my hand saying everything is healthy etc. So far it's been easy as I am still feeling ok, so I am just getting on with things.
Best of luck to you in the coming weeks and I hope the time flies for you for your first scan.