I am sick of this

I'm trying so hard to get pregnant. I am taking clomid and getting trigger shots. I'm going on Tuesday for an hsg just to make sure my tubes are actually open. I have never put so much effort into getting pregnant in my whole life and just when I don't think it can get any worse, my brother in law and his wife pop over unexpectedly. They surprise us by telling us they are pregnant with another baby, which they didn't even want. He says he's getting a vasectomy after this to prevent future children.

I thought I was passed the gender disappointment but I just know they are going to have another girl. My DH is so upset. I don't think I've ever seen him so upset. He feels horrible that he hasn't been able to give me a dd but now I realize just how much he wants a dd too.

I feel like a failure. I actually was able to get pregnant last July but for some reason I miscarried. I feel like my body hates me and I will never get pregnant again. I feel like my hsg is going to show that my tubes are closed. If that happens, I don't know what we'll do. I wish I had a crystal ball so that I would know that I will definitely be able to get pregnant again.

I don't know why my gd is triggered so badly by them. I have no problem when my sister announces she is pregnant but for some reason my husband's brother and his wife just set me off. I had horrible gd after their first daughter was born 20 months ago. It was horrible. I just know it's going to happen again when they announce the gender.

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I just had to pop in and say I understand!!

It been over a year ttc for me now, starting my next FET this cycle.

My GD only comes from DH side also. My DH is the oldest child and we have 2 boys his other brothers get their gf pregnant who they have been with with for 3 weeks and they have the first girl on that side of the family, coincidentally on the day I have my D and c. When we first started trying MIL told me I would have the first girl in the family etc etc. Nope. Now the other brother have just had their girl giving them a pigeon pair. Meanwhile I can't even fall pregnant. They do it so effortlessly all their pregnancies where accidents. At Christmas they where taking about how they just look at each other and there pregnant, right about the time I would of been 10 weeks pregnant but had another miscarriage my third!! My SIL also had to take the morning after pill while down there.

I just don't understand why it's so hard for us we are such good people work hard own our own house. Josh's brothers are all on the dole ex ice addicts. So frustrating!!!

Sorry kinda went off on a tangent about my GD. But I just want you to know your not alone! The pressure to have a girl is crazy and I believe if I have another boy it will be really difficult for me to ever be around that side of the family again.

I think it's nice your DH has your desire for a girl, my DH isn't fazed by it at all and doesn't really understand how I feel. He's an amazing DH willing to do anything to get me a girl, he just wouldn't be fazed either way what any of his kids are, he's very placid like that though.

I feel for you with the gender announcement it's terrible!!


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Thanks, magical! :) I just don't think they get it. To top it off, I think she was going to tell me she was pregnant a while ago (she invited me over to help her clean out their daughter's room) but then didn't because I told her I had had a miscarriage. I don't think she was expecting that.

I'm so sorry that keeps happening to you. It is so frustrating when people get pregnant so easily. I'm glad your DH is supportive. That really helps! :) My fingers are crossed so hard for you!!!! :hugs:

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Thanks, magical! :) I just don't think they get it. To top it off, I think she was going to tell me she was pregnant a while ago (she invited me over to help her clean out their daughter's room) but then didn't because I told her I had had a miscarriage. I don't think she was expecting that.

I'm so sorry that keeps happening to you. It is so frustrating when people get pregnant so easily. I'm glad your DH is supportive. That really helps! :) My fingers are crossed so hard for you!!!! :hugs:

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Oh ladies, my situation is similar but not the same. I am lucky to have no problem falling pregnant but with boys! When I was expecting my fourth son, everyone was having girls after one boy, it was so depressing. I know how hard it is to feel gd. I feel in many ways it has consumed me to point I had to leave social media etc. We are now attempting to go high tech for a girl.

I just wanted to share a few stories of ladies I know who tried so long to have a baby. One had a miscarriage quite late on, she was devastated and to top it off her sister had baby after baby while she felt so raw that she couldn't conceive. Then just like that, out of the blue, bfp with a little girl after two boys. Sometimes it really does happen when you least expect it. I wish you all the best in your cycles and pray for sticky pink bfps soon x

I sure hope you're right, magical!!! I feel like everyone is going to get pregnant except for me.

Babygirlquest, thank you for your support. I really hope it happens soon. I hope you get your HT girl soon!! :)

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Oh I feel you on the jealousy with BIL and wife. My BIL and his wife are 16 weeks pregnant with their first and I just know she's going to have a girl. She's always sending me things that point to her having a girl and I can feel the jealousy rising. I shouldn't care but I find myself hoping they have a boy. And I know everyone on that side of the family is going to pity me if she does have a girl. DH and BIL come from a family of 3 boys, we have 4 boys and the other BIL has 2 boys so MIL has been waiting for a girl for a long time. I know everyone is hoping that this BIL will be the one to FINALLY produce a girl.

On the other hand, my sister had a girl a few months after I had my third boy and I was absolutely thrilled. Although it does bother me a tiny bit that she got a boy and girl without even trying. But that's only now that I've had my fourth boy.

Beau82, my MIL basically ignores us now that BIL has their dd. She's the first granddaughter. MIL goes over to their house once a week to visit them. She's never done that with us and our boys. My brother in law is the favorite, so it really irritates me that he got exactly what he wanted and everyone just fawns over them. It's incredibly annoying. I've been trying to invite my father in law (MIL and FIL are divorced) over for a month and he consistently has an excuse. Meanwhile, he's been to visit BIL 4 times!! It seriously makes me want to move away from them. At least then I can pretend like the distance is the reason they don't visit us. Poor DH is feeling so disowned. I feel horrible for him. He seriously has a better relationship with my parents and siblings than he does with his own. :(

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I'm exactly the same with my BIL and his wife. I love them to bits, they have a boy already and had a miscarriage last year, and are expecting again this summer. I'm really happy for them as my rational head knows they really deserve this, but I'm so scared they will have a girl. I hate feeling so jealous about this! It would be the first granddaughter and it makes me feel sick that it will happen for them but not us. I'm trying to prepare myself for that. Get my I'm so happy for you face on while quietly dying inside. Can imagine my MIL getting excited buying all the girlie outfits and gifts etc. My FIL would have such a soft spot for a granddaughter, he is like that with his only daughter, treats her differently to his sons. Funny thing is if my own brother or sister were to have a girl I would be so so happy! I think it's that blood/genetic link to a girl that I'm desperate for. I also thought I had got to the point I would be happy to have another bit but I don't think I will ever be happy not have my daughter. I'm a mess at the moment and think I'm going to postpone swaying for a few months to get my head together again.

I'm so sorry Ttc2015! I can definitely relate to having to put on a happy face. I had to do that while they were here. They were so excited to tell us and I'm sure they were expecting the same response as when they told us they were pregnant with their dd1, but it honestly took everything I had not to throw up all over the place. I was so quiet while they were here. I'm sure they knew something was wrong. As soon as they left, I ran upstairs and cried so hard. It was horrible. I honestly hope no one throws her a baby shower because I don't think I'll be able to keep it together for that. I think you're right about the blood/genetic link thing. I have no problem at all with my nieces from my siblings. It's only my niece from my husband's family. I think it's because she looks more like I think our dd would look (she has brown hair and eyes like we do) than my sister's dd's (they all have blonde hair and blue eyes). I think it will actually help that we don't see them very often. That way I won't have the constant reminder of her being pregnant. I think we'll maybe see them 3 more times before she gives birth. I had to take a break from facebook too. I can't stand to see all of the pregnant women on it anymore. I currently know 6 women who are pregnant and 5 of them are having girls (the 6th one being my SIL who doesn't know the gender yet). Can you believe that?! It's so incredibly frustrating!