this came out of nowhere..dh is really sick :(
Life has a funny way of punching you in the face. Last month I was so nervous I messed my sway up and was pregnant with another girl, if I wasn't I was getting my sway plan and doing things right this time.. then out of nowhere dh got sick.. really sick.I kept thinking to myself ' is God punishing me for being so upset to have another dd?' Dh is waiting for his biopsies to come back to rule out cancer, unfortunately the other option is irritable bowel disease. Throughout all of this I told Dh I want to skip ttc in july until we get our answers and then we will only proceed if dh is feeling more healthy ( in the last 2 weeks he has lost 10 pounds!) As far as swaying goes having dh sick has definitely put things into perspective for me. I have decided to continue my sway ( waiting to get my personalized plan once we get results back after the 4th so we know what we are dealing with health wise first) but I need to stop being so upset if I get DD2.. will I be sad? Yes but I shouldn't be depressed! ! Life is a gift and things can change in an instant. I think I need to continue the sway for myself just to say ' I've tried everything' and if at the end of the day dd2 comes out of my sway then you know what, she must have been meant to be. Right now I am lightly keeping up with my HE diet but it is on the back burner for a little bit so I can be there for Dh.. his health is what is more important right now. Please I ask that everyone prays for dh. We are hoping to get ibd out of this that can be managed with medication. It's sad I am hoping for a disease but it beats cancer :tissue: