Roller coaster ride that lead to being disappointed

We have two healthy boys at home - we tried for another one beginning of last year and ended up having two miscarriages. We got pregnant again and the baby is healthy of course we couldn't wait to find out the sex. We went around 12 weeks to an early gender specialist who told us we were most likely having a girl! We were so excited beyond thrilled our family was complete picked out a name. We over did it I glimpse, but we were so excited. The next day something was sitting right with me I wanted 100% confirmation so at the end of the next week I got another ultrasound and it was confirmed boy. His pp was not hiding (bloodwork also confirmed boy). The only reason I was upset is because my girl was so close and then reality came into play. The girl was a gone and back to being a dream. I'm going to love my son like no other. I have no doubt about that, but I can't help but get sad when I see a little girl or go shopping and see pink. I would be willing for baby 4 but only if I was certain it was a girl. I really don't want to miss out on the experience of raising a daughter. I'm so close with my mom and growing up was amazing the shopping trips the long talks the salon trips I wanna be able to share that with my daughter. I hope I get to see that day😥 Until then I'll be a mom of three amazing little boys

So sorry you went through this. You have a beautiful attitude though and that little boy will be so loved. Good luck with the rest of your pregnancy and I hope you find your way to your daughter in the future xx