Do you believe in reincarnation? Or is it 1 time you live, 1 time you die?
I was raised atheist, discovered Christianity in my early 20's, got baptized in Orthodox Church and I do believe in God ( maybe not the whole thing in the church) , but there is no doubt about God - Eternal Power & Love & Intelligence.
Just that thing in Christian religion is bugging me - you live only once and that's it, it just doesn't make sense to me.
You know, my DD1 once asked me :'Where was I when you were a little girl mama? I wasn't existing then, right?" And since I love her so much, I immediately answered: " No, you were always existing! You were just waiting to come to us!" and it wasn't til few hours later I realized what I said to her out of LOVE.
I know our human love is nothing compared to God's love and since God loves us, it must mean we were ALWAYS existing in Him ( I believe God doesn't have a gender but is there any other way to write it?) and in eternity.
Reincarnation theory just makes more sense to me....