Can't believe I'm here...

I guess I shouldn't be surprised.

I have been wanting a third (or, a girl, I should say) since my second son was about 3. I kept putting it off because I was so scared of THIS OUTCOME. Another boy. So, I waited and waited and finally went for it and...yep. Another boy.

I felt nothing when I watched my ultrasound today. Nothing. Nothing except regret. I wish I wouldn't have gotten greedy and tried again. I wish I would have been happy with my two boys and stopped there.

I don't want to be pregnant. Don't want a baby. I wish it would just go away...

I am truly so sorry, Annabel. :sad:

I'm so sorry you didn't get that girl this time.

I'm so sorry :( xxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxx

So sorry sweetie :(

Trust me this feeling will go away!! I thought my world had ended when I found out about #5...I honestly couldn't believe that everyone else I knew managed to get an opposite....and here I was with 5 girls!! It got much better and I was in love by the time she was born....but took a few years for the GD to go away. Now I am happy either way and I honestly NEVER thought I would ever get to this place.

I'm so sorry. I know it is so hard. I've been there and many, many of us on the forum have been there.

I only wanted 3 kids but when I knew that my number 3 was the same as the first 2, I had to sit and have a rational discussion with DH. I think it is normal to be angry and grieve but there will come a point when you have to decide what your next steps are.

You will get past this. All of us have and continue to live our lives. It does get better. I know you don't feel that right now but I am going to type it anyway to remind you.

He will bring something to your life. He will fill a gap, admire you, love you unconditionally and teach you something about yourself. I know my kids have taught me things.

If you want to look into HT, I'd be happy to help. If you find out that your family is complete after this baby, that is great too! I hope after you take some time, you'll be okay. I know it is so hard right now but we are always around to chat.

I am so sorry. I remember after finding out my 3rd son was a boy how upset I was. Its hard because no one really understands how you feel and tells you to be happy that it is a healthy baby. I have 4 boys and it is hard because inside I feel incomplete. I know the feelings ended when I saw all of my boys and I couldn't picture my life any differently. I wish I could give you a hug!!

I'm so sorry Annabelle... although it does feel unfair right now, you will get to a point where you won't be able to live without your baby :awe: praying that you feel happier soon, love x

I'm sorry that you are going through this and feeling so sad. I hate GD :(

Sending you lots of hugs xxx