3 girls & wanting a boy so badly...
I have 3 little girls...Kaylee (almost 4), Kennedy (2), & Khloe (4 months old tomorrow)...I love them more than life itself & idk what I would do without any of them..but im longing for a sweet baby boy. When I was pregnant with #3, i was SO sure it was a boy...and she turned out to be a girl...i found out at 18wks & went thru a lot of gender disappointment...i was unable to get her a name until I was 30 wks pregnant bc I just couldnt fall in love with another girl name. I felt horrible after she was born tho, for the way id felt. My other 2 girls look just like their daddy, & Khloe looks identical to me & it was ovbious she did right away. Everyone in the hospital talked about how much she looked like me. When I finally held her, I looked at her looking so much like me, & remembered how Id cried the days after the ultrasound when we found out it was ANOTHER girl. I think my husband felt like he wasnt "man", because he kept saying "maybe he just didnt make boys" & "he sorry he couldnt give me a son"......So now 4 months later...I love my Khloe so very much, she still looks just like me. But even tho she is still a baby, i find myself thinking about......#4. And that doesnt seem fair to her. I feel like im wishing away her baby stages. It seems like everyone I know that has 2 girls, got a boy out of #3. A girl I know, has a girl with one ex-boyfriend, a second girl with another ex-boyfriend, & found out last night she is having a BOY with her new boyfriend. 3 babies by 3 different daddies. She gets her boy..while im married, take care of my kids 24/7. I feel so selfish. I know many women that cant have babies...& thats when I feel horrible about the way I feel. God has blessed me with 3 beautiful & healthy little girls..& i truly am thankful for that. But I feel like my life will never be complete unless I have a son...& it seems wrong to me to keep trying just to get a boy. We didnt sway or anything with #3..but are planning to start TTC #4 sometime next year..most likely next summer, & we plan to sway. But ive seen women on here that sway & their sway fails. So im already worrying about a failed sway for #4 :( Can anyone relate to feeling this way? :-/