GD feels like it effects my whole life....
As I sat in church today a little baby girl was being baptised and I got so sad and depressed. All because of this beautiful little girl in a frily white dress. In the car on the way home my sons were loud and fighting in the backseat, I became irritable towards my husband and sons, frustrated with all of them. For no reason other than they were being loud obnoxious boys. I sat there mad and frustrated asking God why I was dealt this hand? Why wasn't I blessed with a daughter? I feel awful for feeling this way but I can't help it. When I'm pushed too far by the men in my life I get so upset about not having a daughter. Now I know having a daughter can be just as frustrating and girls aren't all sweet but its just the fact its what I want and you glorify what you don't have. I love my boys! And I would never change them!! I hate when I get like this, I feel like I'm taking something away from my boys......
Lindsey
