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Kiku - no!!!!!! I'm so heartbroken to read this!! I'm so, so sorry. It sounds very much like what happened to me with my last m/c. I went in at 7 weeks for my first ultrasound and the sac measured 5 weeks 4 days with no HB or fetal pole. I knew my dates were correct. The m/c was confirmed a week later and I had a D&C a few days after that. The D&C was on March 9 and we started ttc again (and got pregnant) on my cycle that started May 1 - after I'd had one full cycle after the first AF after the D&C.

Again I'm soooo sorry :( :( I will hope for a miracle and that your situation turns out better than mine but please take good care of yourself and know that we are all here for you!!!! You've had so.much going on lately with your move and I'm just so sad you're now having to go through this!

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Kiku - no!!!!!! I'm so heartbroken to read this!! I'm so, so sorry. It sounds very much like what happened to me with my last m/c. I went in at 7 weeks for my first ultrasound and the sac measured 5 weeks 4 days with no HB or fetal pole. I knew my dates were correct. The m/c was confirmed a week later and I had a D&C a few days after that. The D&C was on March 9 and we started ttc again (and got pregnant) on my cycle that started May 1 - after I'd had one full cycle after the first AF after the D&C.

Again I'm soooo sorry :( :( I will hope for a miracle and that your situation turns out better than mine but please take good care of yourself and know that we are all here for you!!!! You've had so.much going on lately with your move and I'm just so sad you're now having to go through this!

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Thank you ABC. It’s been a crazy time and this baby was my light in the dark leaving a place we love. It helps in a way to know this sounds familiar. They tried to make me feel better that my dates are wrong but my dates are NOT wrong. So I go in next Tuesday. Just want it resolved ASAP. I’m so sorry you went through this ABC.

I’m so sorry Kiku :sad:

My heart just breaks for you girls. I’m so sorry.

Kiku, I am thinking of you today. I have been in your very place, several times over. It is a place I wish no woman to ever be. I remember walking out, feeling devastated and then just feeling a peace wash over me. I pray this for you today.


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Oh Kikurose, I am gutted for you. This is so incredibly unfair. I am hoping for a miracle for you but I know all too well the stressful situation you're in :(

I know you asked when we loss moms started trying again. In my case, I often tried right away, though obviously to no success. With this pregnancy, I had had my last loss in the beginning of February. I had my FET where I had one day of positive HPTs, but beta was very low/unviable the next day and not even considered a chemical. I think whenever feels right to you is the right time.

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Hi guys!

I just left the ER with bleeding. I should be 7 weeks pregnant today minimum. The ultrasoundshowed a yolk sac but no fetal pole. So exactly what a 5 week ultrasound would show. They asked if my dates were off but I know it's not- my first positive test was May 24. My HCG is only 4,769 which is around 4-5 week levels. I need to follow up in a week for another ultrasound and possible D/C. I know I’m losing this baby there’s no way it should only be five weeks.

Anyway loving all the good news here- I’ll probably keep checking in on you guys!!! For those that had losses, when did you start to try again?

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I'm so sorry to read this kikurose! I don't know what to say other than that. I think whenever you feel ready to try again. I've heard of lots of success stories from people who tried straight away if that's what you want to do. So sorry again

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I did want to at least update since some of you had asked here and elsewhere, that my scan did go well. I am so sorry about what you're going through kiku, and I didn't want to share last night since I've been where you are so often :( I know how triggering seeing scans and posts can be.

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Measured 12w1d, so 3 days ahead of schedule and 5 days ahead of last time. HB was 158, but trying not to let that get me. DD's was certainly never that high, so who knows -- I wonder if my prednisone and thyroid drug being high can influence baby's heartrate too since mine is higher. BP is higher than normal for me too -- definitely still healthy, but I'm normally hypotensive during pregnancy! Maybe it was how anxious I was :hide:

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Yes tp, my boys and even my sister’s little boy were always in the 150’s-160’s my girls were 140’s and lower and Emmalyn’s has never been higher than 130’s as you know can’t really go off heart rate! What a gorgeous little baby you have there!!

Kiku... I’m so sorry your scan sounds just like my first miscarriage. I tried right away after that one and then I ended with another miscarriage. So for me I had to take time and figure out why it kept happening. All they could figure was all the extra weight I had gained. So I had to take a year to heal and fix myself and then I’m now a week out from having my rainbow baby. Keeping you in my prayers that the lord will present you with a miracle. So many hugs to you. No momma should ever have to go through that.


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I did want to at least update since some of you had asked here and elsewhere, that my scan did go well. I am so sorry about what you're going through kiku, and I didn't want to share last night since I've been where you are so often :( I know how triggering seeing scans and posts can be.

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Measured 12w1d, so 3 days ahead of schedule and 5 days ahead of last time. HB was 158, but trying not to let that get me. DD's was certainly never that high, so who knows -- I wonder if my prednisone and thyroid drug being high can influence baby's heartrate too since mine is higher. BP is higher than normal for me too -- definitely still healthy, but I'm normally hypotensive during pregnancy! Maybe it was how anxious I was :hide:

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I was getting worried when you hadn't updated about your scan! I'm so glad it went well - and that baby is even measuring AHEAD now!!! That's awesome!!!

I was researching the HB thing yesterday and it really seems like there is nothing to it at all. I wouldn't worry about that one. Did you see anything nub-wise that looked boyish?

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Kiku I am so very sorry you are going through this. My heart breaks for you xxx

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I was getting worried when you hadn't updated about your scan! I'm so glad it went well - and that baby is even measuring AHEAD now!!! That's awesome!!!

I was researching the HB thing yesterday and it really seems like there is nothing to it at all. I wouldn't worry about that one. Did you see anything nub-wise that looked boyish?

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I felt bad since I knew you guys might worry, but also felt so bad about kiku's post and felt torn!

And ugh, I thought I saw a girlish nub during... then also thought I saw some stacking, and keep going both ways even with this shot. I see how this early means nothing haha. I was so hoping one of you would come in and say you thought you saw something :P

And oh! About Ramzi? My midwife was actually surprised that the placenta is pretty much on all sides but the bottom. She said that's fine if not typical, but I thought that was funny -- so I probably never could have applied Ramzi to this baby lol.

Yea I looked closely at the pic but I don't think I can see a nub, but I definitely don't see anything girly either :)

Wow that's interesting about the placenta!!

Does anyone take Diclegis (the unisom/b6 medicine... I think it's under different names in different countries)? I took it with DS2 and don't remember it helping much but I don't know that I was that consistent with it. Thinking of asking for some. Although I read that it really makes you tired and I'm already dealing with that - so that may be a no-go for me. But the nausea is getting worse and I threw up tonight so I think things are going to get a lot more unpleasant now...

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I do hope that either way it's resolved soon for you Kiku. The waiting is the absolute worst! :( So many hugs.

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Thank you ABC. It’s been a crazy time and this baby was my light in the dark leaving a place we love. It helps in a way to know this sounds familiar. They tried to make me feel better that my dates are wrong but my dates are NOT wrong. So I go in next Tuesday. Just want it resolved ASAP. I’m so sorry you went through this ABC.

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Sending hugs Kiku xx

TP what an amazing picture I’m so happy for you! Please don’t worry at all about heart rate! This little lady was 160 at my 12 week scan them 120 at my 16 week scan, I panicked! The sonographer told me it was because she was sleeping and she was right it went right back up once she’d been woken up :) can’t believe you’re 12 weeks already eek!!

Kikurose I'm so very sorry to see this [emoji174]

Tp gorgeous baby [emoji7] and I'm getting a boy vibe [emoji6]

Haha, thank you ladies! I'll take any sort of boy vibes at all. One of my BFFs (who barely ever posts on here anymore) thinks boy too but then I can just as easily convince myself that there's forking in what may be the nub (which IF that's a nub I see in this shot -- I know it's at least not cord since we did imagining on that. Maybe leg though), or that the weird little gap at the bottom is vagina (although maybe that's just the imagining haha). I've always been a passive skull believer (mostly because DD had the most beautiful round head in scans haha -- even after birth, too!) and this skull looks different, but I am trying so hard not to get my hopes up. I think I'll cry for days if I did get strong boy clues -- I'd be so over the moon, I can't even imagine what it is to feel that happy!

I keep joking with everyone -- I'm going to walk into my nuchal next week and immediately cover my eyes and the tech will probably think I'm crazy!

And omg girlsway, that would have made me nuts too!! This baby was even sleeping when we got that high heartrate, so seeing 120 would have made me panic! Glad everything was ok! And also makes me think more that maybe my heartrate effects baby (I have tachycardia because of how high my thyroid medication needs to be, so my resting heart is in the early 100s!)

Kiku very sorry to hear so:sadflwr: i pray for miracle and good news for u:pray:

Tp what a cute baby, i wish u hear:DS:

TP, I am cracking up at your description during your scan. I feel like that’s what I will need to do for the anatomy scan!!! Just cover my eyes. We genuinely do want to be surprised at birth.
I’m genuinely struggling not to tell my 8 year old. She knows something is up. I have nausea from 4pm on and I beg to go to bed. The gig is about to be up.



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Kiku very sorry to hear so:sadflwr: i pray for miracle and good news for u:pray:

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Does anyone take Diclegis (the unisom/b6 medicine... I think it's under different names in different countries)? I took it with DS2 and don't remember it helping much but I don't know that I was that consistent with it. Thinking of asking for some. Although I read that it really makes you tired and I'm already dealing with that - so that may be a no-go for me. But the nausea is getting worse and I threw up tonight so I think things are going to get a lot more unpleasant now...

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ABC I did with DS2 and it was a lifesaver. I preferred feeling tired to vomiting all day. Diclegis worked much better for me than the Unisom/B6 because the diclegis is slow release so it worked for longer. I seriously don't know how I would have functioned without it.

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I felt bad since I knew you guys might worry, but also felt so bad about kiku's post and felt torn!

And ugh, I thought I saw a girlish nub during... then also thought I saw some stacking, and keep going both ways even with this shot. I see how this early means nothing haha. I was so hoping one of you would come in and say you thought you saw something :P

And oh! About Ramzi? My midwife was actually surprised that the placenta is pretty much on all sides but the bottom. She said that's fine if not typical, but I thought that was funny -- so I probably never could have applied Ramzi to this baby lol.

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Oh TP, that was thoughtful of you!!! I'm actually getting some joy from everyone else having good scans. I think it actually gives me hope for the future. Plus I don't want any of you to go through this too right now!!!!! Plus you all aren't rubbing anything in, it's different here, just a very supportive place. I want nothing but the best for all of you and these winter babies!!!

And TP, on that note. LOVE THIS PHOTO! I'm getting boy vibes for sure but no can see the nub really I don't think!

There is definitely hope, Kikurose!!! I really almost gave up after my 3rd m/c in March... it was my 3rd in 8 months and we really thought that one was going to stick (that was the one I described to you the other day). I was so depressed - didn't think I wanted to try again. Then after all our fertility testing came back normal we decided we would try again but I wanted to wait until at least June. DH kind of pushed me (he wanted another baby as much as me) to start in May so I said fine, OK, and now we're pregnant with twins! It's still very early and I'm still scared but we're further than we got with the three m/c's. I now really believe that most of the time with m/cs it really does come down to "bad luck" - something just doesn't go right at the very beginning and there's nothing you could have done to change it. I had bad luck 3 times in a row I guess! But you're in the right place here b/c as you said this is such a supportive board, and SO many of us have gone through this as well and while that doesn't make going through it any easier, I think it helps to know you aren't alone and there is always a place to turn to when you need to!

I hope you are settling in well after your move!! Hang in there - as I said I really think the waiting is the worst part :(

Well, ladies, I guess I have officially crossed over to this board! How is everyone feeling? Looking back at the last week I realize I had some different syptoms during the 2ww, but the only thing thats stuck around is the breast pain [emoji17]

Kiki, I am so sorry for your loss. You are in my thoughts and parents

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So happy to see you here Eighme!!

Ladies, I had such an awful dream I woke up in the middle of the night. I dreamt I told my mom we were expecting and she said, "You're scared because it's a girl." And I freaked out in the dream and kept trying to yell that I felt so disrespected after all our losses for anyone to make gender comments.

So both dreams where it was a girl, it was my mom telling me?!? My mom isn't even dead guys lol -- I know this isn't some message from beyond. But I'm wondering if the deeper anxiety is linked there? And maybe it was all just on my mind since I've been debating whether to tell her since I'm so close to having trouble hiding this bump!

And now of course -- panicked again at what the dream could mean :(

Ladies, I asked in the TWW too but the lines on my FRER are dsrkening, I took a CB this afternoon and it says "not pregnant." Has anyone had this happen?

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So happy to see you here Eighme!!

Ladies, I had such an awful dream I woke up in the middle of the night. I dreamt I told my mom we were expecting and she said, "You're scared because it's a girl." And I freaked out in the dream and kept trying to yell that I felt so disrespected after all our losses for anyone to make gender comments.

So both dreams where it was a girl, it was my mom telling me?!? My mom isn't even dead guys lol -- I know this isn't some message from beyond. But I'm wondering if the deeper anxiety is linked there? And maybe it was all just on my mind since I've been debating whether to tell her since I'm so close to having trouble hiding this bump!

And now of course -- panicked again at what the dream could mean :(

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I think the dreams are all from your gender anxiety - I really do. I think it's natural when you are very anxious/stressed about something for it to affect your dreams. I really wouldn't interpret it as a sign of what you are having :)

My three reoccurring dreams over the years: my teeth all fall out (yea I know it's a common one but I've had it several times!), I failed a college class and never actually graduated college, and before I got married I would have recurrent dreams that I got pregnant, was unmarried & didn't know who the father was. LOL!! Pretty random, have no idea where they came/come from but probably some weird underlying anxieties I have. As of today I still have all my teeth, I DID graduate college (even have a master's), and have never been an unmarried mother (nor was I ever a crazy promiscuous person in my dating life!). Dreams are fascinating but I think sometimes they are totally random and other times they reflect more of our daytime thoughts and feelings more than anything else.

Any my mom has the weirdest, most random dreams!!! She tells me about them sometimes and I'm like what the heck is wrong with you, LOL!!!

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Ladies, I asked in the TWW too but the lines on my FRER are dsrkening, I took a CB this afternoon and it says "not pregnant." Has anyone had this happen?

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The CB digital needs an hcg of like 25-50 miu/ml to be positive. Based on your line this morning I don't think you're quite there yet but probably pretty close (I've taken a lot of FRERs and done a lot of hcg blood draws LOL!!). I'd wait another day or two before trying a digital again. Remember FRER can be positive with an hcg level of like 5 - it's crazy sensitive!! So it'll sometimes be positive well before a digital will.

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Oh I’ve some really strange dreams too! In fact last night I dreamt I wouldn’t change this LO’s diaper so I wouldn’t have to know if it’s a boy or girl! LOL, I guess I went the ignorance is bliss route?
Also, I am wearing my sea bands, and I haven’t thrown up since! I don’t know if it’s working or a placebo effect but I was skeptical to begin with but now I’m afraid to take it off!
I had another scan and the heartbeat is 177, so a huge sigh of relief.
Quick question, what timeframe does everyone plan on telling non family, like co workers?

Yay eighme! Welcome and a happy and healthy nine months to you!
That happened to me with ds2- bfp with frer at 8dpo but digital didn't say pregnant'until 13 Dpo
I didn't even use a digital this time- just 3 frers @ 9dpo, 10dpo and 12 dpo and they darkened each time so I was happy with that.

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Yay eighme! Welcome and a happy and healthy nine months to you!
That happened to me with ds2- bfp with frer at 8dpo but digital didn't say pregnant'until 13 Dpo
I didn't even use a digital this time- just 3 frers @ 9dpo, 10dpo and 12 dpo and they darkened each time so I was happy with that.

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Thanks, Kitten! I appreciate it. Im sticking to my frers for now, I didn't even know CB was that unreliable St times!

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Eighme, so normal. Very disheartening but normal. That was with my Emmalyn. Who will be here in just 5 days! I can’t believe I can finally say that! The day before got a nice line, but the next day said not pregnant and my stupid pregnancy test weren’t even as dark until 8:30 am with a three hour hold.

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Eighme, so normal. Very disheartening but normal. That was with my Emmalyn. Who will be here in just 5 days! I can’t believe I can finally say that! The day before got a nice line, but the next day said not pregnant and my stupid pregnancy test weren’t even as dark until 8:30 am with a three hour hold. https://uploads.tapatalk-cdn.com/201...d7b83e3c5a.pnghttps://uploads.tapatalk-cdn.com/201...e728d90f9a.png
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Thanks so much for this! I appreciate! Congrats on your sweet baby girl!

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Welcome Eighme, my digital test only showed up quite late this time round too I wouldn't worry about that. Congratulations!

Oh TP I so understand your anxiety! If it makes you feel better if read an OWT that whatever gender you dream you're having the opposite. I know I dreamt I had a girl last time round and it was a boy. Though I think these things really are our hopes or anxieties. I haven't actually had any dreams this time round.... now that I think about it of anything.... my other pregnancies that was almost how I knew I was pregnant because the dreams were so real and weird. Not sure if vivid dreams is a boy thing maybe? (Holding thumbs that it is for you... and I guess for me too since I haven't had them this time round)

Generally sorry if I'm quiet for bulks of time. I don't know what is going on with the ap but it will sign me out and then tell me my details are wrong when they're not. And then I try log in through the website and it kinda works but then doesn't load or let me reply always. But I do try check this daily.

So I'm actually going for a scan next week. My GP booked it for me. I got the fright of my life the other day. I went for bloods and got a call from her to call back and she sounded very serious. I was like. Ok here we go. She's going to tell me my HCG levels are not matching up with my timeline and that I'm miscarrying. Thank God that's not what she said! But I was mentally preparing myself before I called back.
Turns out my iron is dangerously low. She said I won't be able to grow a baby at the level it is so I'm going in on Tuesday for an iron infusion. Hopefully that will be the last of "bad" news for the pregnancy.

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Simkan, the app does that to me too. Finally I updated and restarted my phone and it seemed to help. It actually kicked me out for 2 weeks. It was killing me.

My kids ARE KILLING ME!?!? Anyone with me? I am getting annoyed and frustrated by ALL of the things. Annoyance. Is annoyance a first trimester OWT? [emoji23][emoji23][emoji23][emoji6]


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