Originally Posted by
Jadis
I know what you mean. I feel so certain that I'm carrying our 3rd boy, and somedays I feel remarkably ok about it. Other days, I'm a total mess. I go between wanting to know the gender so I can just put the miserable suspense behind me and move on with my new son, and wanting to hang onto whatever tiny shred of hope I have floating around the back of my mind. I'm really thankful for this virtual space where I can fiind other women who understand EXACTLY how I feel and won't judge me for it. There's really no-one in my real life that can offer me the same support...not even my DH. He just doesn't get how badly I ache for a daughter. I've even thought of slipping off by myself to have an elective gender scan without him...I don't want to have to pull myself together for his benefit when we find out. Sometimes I think I want to find out all alone so I can just be a mess for a bit. Maybe take a day off work, get the scan alone in the morning, spend the afternoon by myself eating and crying and painting my nails.