:hugs: mrshoneyz
I think you have a very strong frame of mind about it all :)
Like you, if this bubba turns out to be a boy (which my gut says it will be) i now that i wont be disappointed in HIM, but rather, disappointed that I will never have a daughter (DH's limit is 2, id go back for 3, but he is dead against it)
Never say never - you don't know what surprises future may bring...and maybe it will bring you a daughter one day.
Either way i think your outlook is a very healthy one and you should be proud of that :)
I know that life sometimes appears so unfair, and i myself find that I look at people who have both genders, and think 'what did they do to deserve it' (i especially think that about a particular individual who is sadly a terrible mother, and has had social services take away both her children - how come she got to have one of each - yet other mothers that would give their right arm to have that opportunity, don't) But everything happens, or doesnt happen, for a reason and we just have to trust in that.
Whenever my gender desire peaks and try and remind myself of my mum, she had 3 girls, then a boy...but she never ever wanted any girls (dont know why, neither does she) she always wanted 4 or 5 boys. She had major GD with me (i was the 3rd daughter) And then she finally got the son that she had spent her entire adult life wishing for - and sadly he has been nothing but sadness and trouble - I wont go into all the details, and of course she loves him, but it does make you wonder....looking back, she regrets that the desire took over her life, she regrets the GD that she couldnt put herself past, and she wonders wether maybe she should have let the gender desire go, rather then force and wish for something that was just not happening. Her situation reminds me that everything happens the way it should - and we need to try and find contentment in that.
Hope DH comes round soon, and whenever you need to vent thats what we are here for :)
