That's the plan I told him this afternoon ad soon as he gets here!https://www.fertilityfriend.com/home/474f80Quote:
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That's the plan I told him this afternoon ad soon as he gets here!https://www.fertilityfriend.com/home/474f80Quote:
Originally Posted by HGmama
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Is this positive?
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Eeee!! FXFXFXFXQuote:
Originally Posted by strawberrybella89
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So I looked at mine from yesterday and this has to be a positive! Lol I thought the control line was the top one (close to the white) but it's not. I thought I was never going to get an LH surge and would be anovulatory this cycle. I was pretty achy this morning and thought maybe AF was coming (since my D and C was 7/5 I thought it was possible something was wonky since my temps have been super low). So this surge was a pleasant surprise!Quote:
Originally Posted by kikurose
Yeeeeees! [emoji106][emoji106]🤞🤞🤞Quote:
Originally Posted by kikurose
Super close! Hope it happens soon but not too soon [emoji12]🤞🤞Quote:
Originally Posted by strawberrybella89
Exciting kiku & strawberry!
Strong positive kiku
Hope your AI goes smoothly strawberry
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Thank you emshe!! Are you 10 dpo today? Or 12? I couldn't remember if your chart had your O early or not.Quote:
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It’s marked earlyQuote:
Originally Posted by kikurose
I honestly think maybe I’m 9 dpo
I’m ok. Not wanting to think about it [emoji51][emoji51]
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Totally understand. I hope you had a fantastic weekend!!!Quote:
Originally Posted by emshe
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Hi all! So I changed phones on Friday evening and everything went to poop lol. But back on finally and will go back and catch up. I also lost all my saved chart links but have been able to resave those that have one in their siggies [emoji16]
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Is mine showing up for you in any of my signatures? I tried to fix it and I can see it on my end when I’m on the site but not in Tapatalk.Quote:
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Hope you had a great weekend
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Thunder I'm sorry af arrived and hope so much this next cycle will bring your bfp [emoji173]
Strawberry hmmm [emoji848] could your pos opk possibly have been on cd9?? Have you ever oed that early? Not saying you have of course but its possible... really, really hope you haven't and see your usual pos opk on cd12 [emoji120]
Emshe what day are you testing?? I'm literally holding my breath [emoji79][emoji102]
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No kikurose it's not there in tapatalk. Can you try adding again to your signature here or post a link?Quote:
Originally Posted by kikurose
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Hang on I do have it!!!!
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Oh and nice pos you posted earlier!!! Woohoo for go time! Sending you truckloads of fertilisation vibes ⛟[emoji598][emoji597]
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Kiku good luck with attempt:fingers:
Emshe i wish u find bfp:pray:
Strawberry did it all work out! I see you finally got your Positive today! Hopefully that makes for excellent timing!
Emshe- I'm dying to know what those notes are about. Whatever they are, hope you had a good weekend.
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Just left my OB for my DNC followup. Baby had trisomy 16. I’m so glad they didn’t tell me the gender I really could not have handled knowing. But she said I’m at a higher risk for it happening again which made me very nervous!! She seemed like it was a bad thing there was a chromosomal abnormality where I thought that was a good thing rather than baby having nothing wrong?! Now I’m just over here freaking out. I have two healthy boys which I am so grateful for.
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I'm so sorry kikurose. I wish she would have provided comfort instead of worries. I've seen a few trisomy 18 and 13 babies, but I dont think 16. The reoccurrence sounded really off to me so I did some basic googling. It really does not suggest what your doctor told you at all. I would love for you to put your worries at ease and speak with a geneticist. I was very comforted knowing that my last pregnancy loss was chromosomal related and not me. I hope you find that comfort.Quote:
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HG mama thank you so much! I’m not a crier but that brought tears to my eyes. Thank you so so much for looking that up!!!Quote:
Originally Posted by HGmama
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Thank you! Great idea on the geneticist. I was thinking it was comforting. So at my appointment I said I was relieved it was chromosomal. She replied that no it was bad news because more likely for chromosomal issues. So basically I got crushed [emoji30] I hadn’t read that anywhere but then she threw that at me☹️Quote:
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Doc is wrong, trisomies happen to people (you should see the number of our IVF/PGD gals who will have various trisomies and then several normal babies) just random chance. There are a minority, very small minority of people who do have recurrent chromosomal abnormalities but most losses are a)chromosomal and b)never happen again and are just sheer bad luck.
I’m sorry Kiku :(
I agree with Atomic though - very likely it was just bad luck! I had 3 consecutive miscarriages and I honestly believe now that they were all just random chromosomal problems- trisomies or triploidy or whatever. I had recurrent pregnancy loss testing after my 3rd and was checked for all kinds of other possible causes of my m/cs and everything came back normal, leading both my OB and specialist to conclude it was “just bad luck” (aka chromosome issues). And yet here I am, 15 weeks pregnant with two seemingly healthy twins :). Which is still insane to me after having all those losses!!
The one thing I was told over and over by all of my doctors is that by having had two healthy kids already, it was much more likely to be just random chromosome errors occurring at conception rather than a defect in DH’s or my chromosomes that would continue to cause the same chromosome problems. So with you having two healthy kids already, that would apply to you as well I’m sure!
As atomic and Pbn and others on here told me as I was going through my losses, it’s really about a good egg and a good sperm meeting and everything going “just right” in those earliest stages and unfortunately sometimes - to no fault of our own - that just doesn’t happen! Doesn’t make it any easier to experience I know. But your rainbow baby is coming - I know it!!!
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Pbn please don’t hold your breath! We all value you too much to lose you!!!
Well I woke up in tears from a dream where I was off visiting people whom we’ve lost contact with, explaining to them in tears why we’ve been so withdrawn. And my temp dropped from 36.98 yesterday to 36.3. I truly thought I could be pregnant.
It is time for me. Time for my boys. Time to be a wife & a mum. Time to live. To reconnect. I’m so sick of being in the outside looking in on my boys growing. It’s time to walk beside them holding their hands and kissing their faces.
Uncannily it was pretty much 3 years ago (we made our attempts on was likely my ov day this time) I started the physical side of a long planned sway journey. And the conception of my first loss. From their we threw ourselves into planning our HT, one round I promised, a round that was a challenge complete bust. Another round I begged.
He did everything again sacrificing himself to more work & our financial well-being to help me realise this dream in an attempt to get me back, to try and see me fulfilled & able to be again. Again a promise this is the last trip. Transfer didn’t take.
I have to go back and get her, & get her we did! She stuck. We lost her. My heart.
I threw myself into swaying, planning and trying again, it seems to be my method of coping. But coping isn’t a way to live. I’m not here in life. I’m missing out, they are missing out. And I am missing all those angel babies.
But at the same time I’m reluctant to stop. I WILL be MISSING you too! All of you wonderful ladies whom I’ve come to think of as friends. I will miss you all and I really hope that you all find your happy ever after.
I’ve kind of looked forward to life the last few days knowing that either way I wouldn’t be swaying anymore, but I just can’t bring myself to stop the diet, how do I stop? How do I give up, how do i tell myself it’s ok to never hold the baby I’ve dreamed of for so long?
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Thank you so much for all the reassurance, atomic and abc! It really means so much to me. I'm so grateful for this forum for support.
That makes sense that it's just random chance, I have no idea why she said that, but I am taking solace in your advice. And praying that a good egg and sperm can meet up here soon lol.
(I'm also probably going to switch OBs ha)
Oh kiku, I’m sorry. I’m glad you’re feeling reassured by all these wonderfully knowledgeable ladies, I seriously believe they know more than a professional any day.Quote:
Originally Posted by kikurose
Your rainbow baby is out there just waiting for he perfect time to surprise you xoxo
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Oh emshe.
I wish I had more words to say, but I'm so struck by how brave and strong you have been through all of this. I so wish this wasn't how your journey was ending, but I'm glad it is something you seem ready to embrace. I'll miss you around here, but enjoy those boys. Run, play, drink some wine, have some ice cream, and try to bask in the freedom of it. You did everything you could, but things just fell the wrong way. You aren't giving up, it seems to me you are simply choosing to focus on the boys now. You all have worked so hard, emshe. So so hard.
I imagine it's much like grief, some days will be worse than others, but I hope you begin to have more good days then bad. And I hope that you mostly feel at peace with it all.
So so so many hugs.
Emshe, the reply Kikurose wrote to your beautiful words says a lot of what I hope for you too. I hope you can find peace and freedom on letting go, and that you savor the sweetness and simplicity of life with your family without swaying, without planning. Sending hugs.Quote:
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Emshe I'll be back after school drop off but couldn't read and not respond with a huge virtual hug.
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Oh emshe [emoji24], How beautiful and sad all in one ❤️. i can’t offer you anything other than a big virtual hug.Quote:
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I can totally relate to the amount of energy that goes into this, but not to the extent it’s been for you.
Go enjoy your boys.
Go live and enjoy your family and life , & hope you find some peace in that .
My heart goes out to you, and wish you lots of healing at this time [emoji8][emoji8]
Emshe, Ive been in this forum for just a few months but gotten to know some incredible, smart, time- generous ladies, and you among them.Quote:
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You are so right in that life passes by while we are “planning”... sons, or any child is really a gift we sometimes forget .. in no time they will be going to to college and dreaming of something else.
For you to pass time, I really recommend hearing the podcast of: How to Love your Boys by “at home with Sally”
Sometimes in this TTC journey we forget to make our home a “home” and cook something sweet, hear the little laughs of our little ones.
Its also hard being happy about all the BFPs and succesful sways when not being succesful personally. I believe we are capable of being happy for others but at the same time thinking: when will that be me? Will it someday?
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Emshe, wishing you the best in all things no matter what. I so wish I had been able to help you achieve your dream. Please take care of yourself and I hope every joy is headed your way soon.
Emshe what you wrote brought tears to my eyes as that is exactly how I felt and bought back so many memories both good and bad. The only thing different is I was ready to let it go completely and was so relieved rather than sad or regretful that my ttc journey was over. I was excited about looking for casual work and planning things with my boys. I'll never know why the universe seen fit to give me my girl after I gave up on her (any baby at that stage) so I'll hold onto the hope that as you move on with life and your beautiful boys, that you will be gifted in the exact same way [emoji173] You have a heart of gold and I truly will miss you and your wonderful, supportive posts [emoji17] Take care dear lady xo
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Im trying to be! The moments of brave are fleeting though. Thanks kikuQuote:
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Thanks gafan. Some days it's hard to see the beauty but I have to go and remind myself it's there, & to try to embrace it.Quote:
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Atomic I cant thank you enough for everything that you have guided me with and everyone in this whole community, you are a truly special woman. Your efforts will never be forgotten. AND thankyou for your words, I do wish things were different but I have to try and move on. I could go on trying forever...Imagine, me the lady still trying to conceive her baby girl at 90 ;) I reckon I'd make the papers at least. Die a little famous.Quote:
Originally Posted by atomic sagebrush
I dont know whether we will stop stop as it seems we don't need contraception, but I am also scared to do NTNP if I'm not on diet. I love the diet, and the not snacking, thats part of why its hard to stop. You made it too good! Maybe Ill just get back into exercise because I LOVE that too, and go easier on measuring. I also enjoy having sex every 3 days, ha, never thought Id say that out loud but its so easy to get too busy. It was nice to know it was a routine. I just need it to be life first now.