I hope you are ok Spinning, i am shattered reading your words. I'm so sorry for your loss.
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I hope you are ok Spinning, i am shattered reading your words. I'm so sorry for your loss.
I'm sorry to intrude but I saw this post in the homepage feed and I had to come on to just say how absolutely devastated I am for you. I cannot imagine what you are going through just now Spinning, I am so deeply sorry. I hope you are being well supported by family and friends, I can see that the other ladies on this thread are being lovely. I hope and pray things work out for you and you get your longed-for DD one day.
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Spinning hadn't been in here in a couple of days until last night but was so upset after reading what you are going through I couldn't even think what to reply. I am still at a loss for words but wanted to let you know my heart is so broken for you and your family. You are such a brave woman and I really wish there was something we could all do to take this pain from you but unfortunately we can't. If it too hard to be hear then it is understandable but like everyone posted above if you want to talk everyone is here for you. (((((hugs))))
Absolutely heartbreaking.
I am so sorry for your loss. Thinking of you xxx
I can't believe how fast things have moved since yesterday. Oh my friend...I wish I was there to hold your hand and cry with you. I'm so sorry.
I haven't been here in a little while and I was just coming back to check on everyone. Spinning- my heart is broken for you. I'm just in shock over your news and I wish I could give you a huge hug. No one should have to go through what you have ever- let alone twice in 7 months
Spinning, I dreamt about you last night and woke up this morning with you on my mind. I don't know what to say, but please know that there are dozens of women around the world crying for you and lifting you up in their thoughts and prayers. We are here supporting you with everything we can, in words and in spirit. Please take care of yourself, and kiss your sweet boys. We are all grieving with you.
I'm so so sorry Spinning, I just can't believe it. You are in my thoughts and prayers, sending you a big hug and lots of love. xxxx
Iam just so so sorry spinning my heart is breaking for you xxxxx
Thanks everyone for the nice thoughts. I'll let you all know when I hear the amnio results.
I am still happy for all of you.
I feel like our plans have changed, again but after the last time I gave up on planning. unfortunately, our only option in the future is HT
I dont see the point in trying when they say it might happen again and have a CVS at 12 weeks. Just to have to face the same decision , ykwim?
HT would be a great option. Would you be able to work with a local clinic?
My heart is hurting for you this morning, my friend.
I know I can locally as I know someone who did it for Cystic Fibrosis and it was sent to michigan for testing.
However I did briefly talk to NBP and I guess natura would be the best and most accurate way to do it. I just feel like its so over my head HT. but at the same I wanted to wait 1-2 years and I guess I feel like researching those 1-2 years would help the time go by.
I do want to wait the year though. And I know since my parents will be financially taking care of the HT , they also would want my body to recover.
So sorry spinning. I hope your recovery and healing process goes well. We are all thinking of you. So glad you are looking to the future possibilities. You will one day have and hold your dd :-).
Oh Spinning I'm so sorry for your loss! I just read the last few pages on this thread and couldn't believe my eyes! It's incredible how fast everything has happened- one minute you're anticipating your scan and the next your entire world turns upside down. It just isn't fair. Please try not to blame yourself, these things happen and many times for no apparent reason. When I lost a baby three years ago I felt just like you- confused, upset , it felt like I'm walking through thick fog, and just wanted to get over with that entire PG. Lucky for us baby stopped developing a few days after the first diagnosis so we didn't have to make any difficult decisions. Regardless, I agree with what Rosie said about life being hard enough as it is, so I'm pretty sure we would have terminated that PG anyway. Take care of yourself and your family, cherish your healthy boys and I'm sure we'll here good news from you in he future xxx
Oh spinning. :( I hope they can figure out what's happening or why this keeps happening, and I'm glad that HT is an option for you. I'm just so heartbroken for you... on the verge of tears. I'm sending you the biggest hug from Arizona...
Spinning I am so deeply sorry, there are just no words...
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Originally Posted by Rosie85
This really says what I am thinking. So sorry spinning, please take care of yourself. :(
I feel bad for DH. More because I wanted to try again I feel like I put him through this a second time.
he doesnt say that of course just how I feel.
and also it was all so quick to him. I went to the dr and got the news and before he knew it was inducing. he didnt have all the convos with the drs .. etc.
I'm so sorry spinning, my heart just aches for you and your family. I don't even know what to say, it's just so unfair. I'm glad you can go HT later on though, and finally get your dd that you so deserve!
I'm so so so sorry for your loss - this is heartbreaking just to read!! :(
Try not to put all this guilt on yourself sweetie it was all out of your control. Big hugs to you and your dh and of course your sweet boys. XxQuote:
Originally Posted by spinningmadly
Just wanted to stop in and say, I am so sorry spinning for what you are going through. None of us can really imagine how you're feeling now but just want to give my support for you. Sounds like you are a very strong woman, but I hope you have some good support over there IRL.
Spinning, I'm just so sorry and heartbroken for you. :( I'll be keeping you and your family in my thoughts and prayers. Sending love your way.. xxxxxx
Spinning your DH will work through it all hon, try not to take that on too, just as long as you are both there for the other then everything will eventually start shining again. Take your time to heal, mentally and physically so you are ready for when you take your HT journey. thinking of you all as always xoxo
This thread feels so different to me now. It's hard to chat about topics relating to our own pregnancies when a friend is going through something so traumatic. After what took place in CT on Friday, and what's happened to Spinning I feel like I can't protect my children whether they are inside me, or out in the world. Life is so fragile. It's terrifying that things can change this quickly.
Spinning, you will be on my mind often. You have been for months now. We've been on your journey with you to get your dd. And we will be with you through this tough time of grief and healing. I hope you will take us along if and when you start your ht voyage. I do believe many of us share a special bond. The only thing that seperates us is distance. My thoughts are with you and your family. I'm here if you need me...
Thanks. I wanted to post but I wasn't sure if what I was posting or venting was pregnancy related anymore. But I wanted to since I've gotten so close with you all. It's different this time in the sense that we knew this baby was just not well and sick. I don't have the exact same feelings of wanting the baby back. However I am just so frustrated. That this happened twice. Either it is my fault and it's something I'm doing or it's not and it's genetic and I have no control
Over it , which doesn't make me feel any better to have no control. You know? It's just not fair that I've done this twice. Every other person on my street is pregnant and I'm just tired of having to be the statistic in the group. Why am I always in the 1%??
Its not your fault spinning. Do you have an appointment with a genettic counsillor yet or are you even going to bother with any of that now that you have decided to go ht?
Oh, spinning... It's just not fair. :(
I am soo sick of everyone losing their babies this week. Why!!! Everytime I turn the computer on another person has had a miscarriage...late ones at that! With the shooting and too many people I care about losing their babies I feel like something has gone off in the world this week. I just want to cry. I am so heartbroken for everyone who is going through what they are. I wish I had a magic wand to fix everything.
This. Entirely. I am just shattered for you spinning. I can't stop thinking about if I would be as strong as you. I can't stop being mad at the world for doing this to you twice. I just feel like a lot changed in such a short time and I can't catch up. Nor do I want to. I am just scared, saddened, and confused by this world we live in and what it can bring. My thoughts and prayers (if that is your thing) goes out to you. They are just from one person, but with all of us, I hope you feel a bit more love pouring your way.Quote:
Originally Posted by ThreeMenAndALAdy
Spinning just checking in to see how you are keeping on the off chance you read this? I am sure things are very hard for you at the moment but wanted to let you know you and your whole family are in my thoughts and prayers and I hope you are taking care of each other.
I wrote back and it deleted my message.
thanks. sometimes its hard to be on here and other times i just know I have crappy luck and it doesn't make me less happy for anyone else.
right now I am just trying to be there for my kids and not sit holed up in our room all depressed.
I know that the first thing DS1 said to DH when he told him the baby girl was sick again was "do we have to leave mommy alone in the room again now?" and I don't want it to be like that. The past year of both of their lives I've been either sick from pregnancy or recovering from stillbirth/mc or depressed.
This time around I am looking much more at the positive side. We could have found out much later as trisomy 13 babies usually do make it later, we could have ended up with a very very sick baby (and with all the issues ours had) probably suffered for a couple hours in the nicu and in my opinion ended up with harder decisions as to do we prolong the life or not. The dr's are finally admitting the other baby was not a fluke. And theres something going on. And it means that we can go HT (With ALL of my families support) which means I can get my girl and ensure this wouldn't happen again.
I am waiting for the amnio results.
They are supposed to be today at lunch time they said. ugh
Spinning so sorry for you but I admire your strength so much and hope that you manage to have an good christmas with your boys and husband. It sounds like you have a good man and two wonderful boys there. I don't really know what to say to you about the results but I am sorry you have to wait for them and go through all of this at all.
Ok ladies. As much as it hurts, I think we need to move forward with this thread.
A question for you...if you celebrate Christmas, are you done shopping for it? I'm running around like a mad lady trying to tie up the loose ends. Any gift in particular that your kids want this year?
My sons wants ipod touch's and my dd wants a nintendo ds. I'm trying to stay excited because I do love Christmas. I have a lot to be thankful for this year. For starters, I'm grateful to be due around the same time as all of you lovely ladies. I enjoy you all and hope you have a wonderful holiday, and happy, healthy New Year!!
:HH: Spinning
We're done shopping. DH is pretty bummed because our finances took a pretty big hit this year but I keep reminding at least he still has his job, his friend/co-worker wasn't as lucky. It's not all about presents anyway and we have a lot to be grateful for. The boys really just wanted Call of Duty: Black Ops 2 and we have it waiting for them. Some clothes and a few educational books for DS3.
I hope 2013 brings peace, joy and love to all of you! xxx
I've only just started shopping today! Have had this horrible sickness bug for three days thank god it seems to have gone today!!Quote:
Originally Posted by ThreeMenAndALAdy
I got my older 2 the new Nintendo wii console thing to share, but super stuck on what to get ds3 he has so many toys already! I've also picked up a few games that they can all play together arrgh so stuck! x
For the most part we're done shopping. I just need to get some odds and ends and stocking stuffers. I hate the end of my shopping because it just makes me feels like I need more and never have enough, then I'm buying just to buy. Retailers love me. My older son asked for the new Call of Duty, his drivers permit and a few other things. My middle son just wants motorcycle gear. And the three year old... Well, he basically wants everything on every commercial.
We bought a new house last year and financially we're pretty strapped because we're putting in a backyard right now. I can't wait until the house is done!!
I am so thankful for all of you lovely ladies as well. I'm so happy I found this dd thread and looking forward to a happy and healthy New Year for us all.
Another here who is nearly finished shopping. I have a few bit to get for my Grandad and dh's Nana but thatis about it. All the family and the Santa stuff is done. I love finishing it all off, getting the pressies wrapped and cards done and the having the presents distributed to all. We will be spending Saturday going around to all the family members delivering their gifts, Sunday going to the Santa Village with the boys and Monday relaxing and doing whatever they want to do before an early night. Finished up work tomorrow until the 8th January and dh is taking the same time so should be a good break for us.
I am going to pick up my lay-by this morning, i cant even really remember what i got, it was a trolly full of stuff. All 3 girls wanted a Furby but they were sold out at the time so i got them a Fur Real Pet each. Lots of Barbie stuff, dress ups and duplo, some kids make up and jewelry. I am looking forward to next christmas when i will be able to get some boys toys too.