I TOTALLY know how you feel. I am really in the same boat. We may not ever get pg naturally anyway, and my DH will be 40 this year (I just turned 36). Time is not on our side. We know the issue is mainly his sperm count, but it is so soul-crushing each month. It does suck when you have to ttc for a while.....I got pg not even ttc before, and even was so concerned with preventing for so long, and now, I can't get pg to save my life. I'm with ya, Ladybug. Hopefully we will get a miracle baby this next month and our woes will be over! We gotta think positive!