Uk SMOG Wannabes ~ January

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Originally Posted by Inglewood

Morning!!

Deaks, glad ur feeling a better about attempt and things are going well? Is it this weekend ur attempt? or beg next wk?

Lavender, so glad the bleeding has stopped! Had u take the same cranberry strength before?? I had to half my initial dose due to low ph, but worth keeping an eye on. x

Indigo, wish i could fit into lycra!! Even pre-pg! Good for you runnning, last time I went on a 'running' spree I was off work for 6wks with sciatica and had to get intensive pysiotherapy, lost alot of weight running, but never again! You must be chuffed to see ur wee bump coming on...reassuring!

Hello to everyone else!!! :)

Ok what do u ladies think.....names for the :twins: Aubergines today!!!

We have decided to call the Girls Ruby and Amber. (I loved Ruby, which is a precious stone and Dh likes Amber also being a precious stone, so they seem to match well).

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Beautiful names for the Aubergines :) I love them both xx

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Originally Posted by Babymad

Thanks hun xx Feeling a bit better today. I have just been feeling down about bubs being a boy.... :( I needed a few days without being online before they carted me off in a white coat!!
This is the end of the line for our dream of having a DD and its very hard to think I will more than likely have to accept NEVER having a DD, I just don't know where to start......
Our journey has been a long one with lots of heart ache a long the way so I am pleased that my family is now complete but the sadness and longing never get any easier, how do you live with that forever, the last 8 years has been hard enough :( I just wish I didn't feel the way I do...how many times can you grieve for the DD that never was/ or was taken from you
Sorry didn't mean to off load my waffle onto you.
How are you doing? Great that you have felt baby kicking.....its lovely :) xx

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Baby mad the specualtion seems to be really upsetting you. Please consider getting a sexing scan because you may have your dd growing in your belly and all this heartache could be put to a stop. If it is a DS you will know for sure and can focus on names and outfits and positive things. hugs hon x

Inglewood – ruby and amber are great names and go together really well.

Sunset – fantastic piccies. You look great! And bless Serena is gorgeous… I love newborns! They are just so magical.

Deaks – relaxing all the opking and temping will make this next attempt so much more enjoyable. Relaxing is good. With DS1 and DS2 I fell pregnant during/after a holiday… so relaxing must help! Fingers crossed it will lead to your BFP…

Zanacal – hope you feel better soon!

Babymad - I agree with Lavender - maybe finding out will help. I have been feeling stressed out that this baby is a boy. I am finding out in 2 weeks. After all my nub guesses being boy I have decided it is a boy and I was really down for a while. I then spent some time discussing boys names with DH and I have to say... I started to feel much brighter. I know I still haven't come to terms with the idea of never having a girl but I will deal with that in the future...

Well I had my first appointment at the hospital. Seen the midwife once but saw the doc today. I like my doctor – a good looking and very friendly man  Ended up being at the hospital for 4 hours! Thank god its holidays and the boys were at home with DH. First the doc wanted to do a smear. Then he organised a blood test and a 24 urine test (I have an ongoing kidney prob)… more waiting. Then he wants to do 2 weekly scans until 24 weeks. I had surgery on my cervix and as DS1 was a 35weeker he wants to watch me. So I had to hang about and get squeezed in for a cervical length scan today… more waiting. I DESPERATELY wanted to ask what the gender is… but couldn’t really as I was being squeezed in and she was super fast! Ahhh just another 2 weeks of waiting!!!! I have another piccie of bub though :D All these extra appointments with the boys will be so much fun!!!

Anyways – we’re off camping at the beach on Saturday so I’ll be off here for a few days.

Good luck to any attempters!!!

Hi everyone,

Indigo ~ When is your 12 week scan?

Maybe ~ Cant believe you will have a baby soon - very exciting :)

Anyone attempting soon a part from Deaks? GL x

Its horrible day here...raining and windy. Just about to put the wood burner on :)

Babymad, sorry to hear ur feeling down. The others may be right about the scan? That's why I had to know, as waiting till they came would of cracked me up inside and Dh would of been close to killing me! He admitted he couldn't of lived with my emotions if we didn't know. I wish there was something I could say to help, but you will know the right thing to do, waiting or not. :) HUGS xx

Pinga, I've had alot of treatment on my cervix over the years, very unpleasant and hence why I can't give birth vaginally!
Enjoy ur camping and 2 wks is not long till u know! x Yeah for ur sweet potato!!!! Thought my pg was zooming fast, they all seem to be!

Lavender, might not be the cranberry then? but might be worth thinking about, do u take aspirin too? We don't know any Ruby's or Amber's either, so hoping till April no-one has a baby locally that we know with those names!

Z, Wow! 25th Feb, my mum's b'day, so won't forget, so exciting!!! trying to upload 4d pics to my photobucket with no joy! Won't give up!!! We have decided as we choose the name Ruby 1st, whatever baby comes out 1st gets Ruby! 2nd baby Amber. The boys choose lovely wee mini build a bears for them, ds not too enthusiastic to be putting the wee dress he choose on the bear, typical 9yr old boy!! but ds2 was loving it!!!! he'll be playing with dolls for sure!!

We have told family and friends now, but haven't FB it yet, my mum wants to get a hold of a few people before then, so I will do it eventually! Everyone so happy for us, it's lovely. The shock of 2 babies was alot for us both to take in and still is, but abit easier to take in knowing it's girls. Esp with them being identical twins, either boys or girls would of been a new experience for us, but I do feel very lucky, although won't 100% let myself believe it till they are here in my arms.

Inglewood! so pleased the ascan went so well and your boys had an amazing day! i absolutely love the name Amber i have always loved it! My mams family dog which sadly passed away a few month ago was called Amber. but i love it for a girl! I dont know anyone with that name round here but there is alot of Rubys but all the same they are both beautiful names!

Thanks LMW! luckily there are NO Ruby's around here at all, so kinna glad and hoping it stays that way till April! I do know of 1 Amber, but it's friend thru another friend kinna thing, so Fx it doesn't get used either.

i also agree with the girls Babymad, that you should maby think about going for a sexing scan. just to put yourself at ease with the whole situation instead of obsessing over it! i thought the way petal went around it and had a sexing scan without her dh knowing was definitely a good idea and one i have started to think about. i dont know how im going to react when im told and really dont know if id be able to cope with my emotions as well as my dp at the same time if this one is a boy. Maby if i knew first then i could get over it in time before my dp knew IYKWIM. I will come to that stage when the time comes. who knows what i will decide

Babymad - thought that was the case.....time away but also time to grieve - although you dont know for sure your dream is over yet....is that harder?? I dont know x All i know is I think i will be joining you I know potty shots arent great at 13wks but am sure this is a little boy too. I keep dreaming i give birth to a girl then I wake up and remind myself to stop. I hope that although it will be my last baby and it will kill me to know I will NEVER have a a girl that knowing i will have no more will stop the wondering.....not the desire for a girl but the what ifs. I will never have more than 4 kids so I will have to focus on what i do have. Sorry for waffling I just want to give you a big hug I think back to my 20wk scan with ds3 and how my world collapsed. I have everything crossed that you have a little princess in your belly and we both know even through all the pain of if we have boys we will love them so so much it just still hurts. Here if you need me hun x

waves to all will catch up later the headache is back....:( inglewood cannie wait to see piccies x x love the names BTW thinking they are just perfec' :D

Hi all
Oh babymad i really truly feel for you. Im not sure what else i can add that charlie hasnt already said but i am thinking of you. I still think there is a great chance that there is a girl in there (i was sure of it from your 12 week scan pic) but i know if and when a fourth boy comes along, he will be an amazing final addition to your family. I have been going out of my way lately to find all the pro's to having boys over girls and the more i think about it, the more i have been getting my head around my gd. In fact when i go out now, instead of looking at all the little girls wishing i had one, i have almost trained my brain to look at the reasons why i wouldnt want one. It seems to be working! Plus there is something undeniably cute about seeing a mum surrounded by little boys!! X

Inglewood, what a lovely family day out you had! I love days like that.

Inglewood I love the girls names! Beautiful!

Babymad I'm sorry you feel so low, I wish I could help but we all know how your feeling, I try not to let myself think it's a boy because I'm not sure how I'll feel of it is, of course he would be loved but you know it's a scary though! I couldn't stay team green I'd need to know either way to either celebrate or get my head around things!

Deaks good luck with your sway this month!

Not much going on here, just plopping away, I should be cleaning as I'm finally at home for more than 5 seconds but all I want to do is sit on my arse and do nothing! :) so that's what I'm doing!
Just watched 15 kids and counting wow that's alot of kids!

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Originally Posted by Inglewood

Morning!!

Deaks, glad ur feeling a better about attempt and things are going well? Is it this weekend ur attempt? or beg next wk?

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Not entirely sure when my attempt is but should be sometime between monday and friday next week. Hoping that by putting it to the back of my mind as much as possible, ov will happen at the earliest time! Cant wait!

Hi everyone, finally feeling human again, felt awful last week though pregnancy was going to be a bitch to me this time, was exhausted and aching and couldnt keep going. Then OH rang to say he is aching and can only work an hour then feels awful for an hour, aching too, exactly like I was so think its a virus as feel more energetic now thankfully!

Babymad sorry your feeling a bit down, hope you find some positive thinking soon, so hard!

Inglewood, love your name choices! Not sure Ill ever think about girl names unless I had a girl in my arms, dont want to go down that route really as think it may make the desire worse for a girl.

Hope everyone else is good,will catch up soon!

My 4d scan, pic's aren't as good as hoped, esp since twin 2 was hogging the camera by squashing the other into my placenta!

Twin 1- http://i1095.photobucket.com/albums/...07/TWINS_9.jpg
Twin 2- http://i1095.photobucket.com/albums/...07/TWINS_6.jpg

aww how beautiful inglewood! so sweet!

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Originally Posted by charlieispy

Babymad - thought that was the case.....time away but also time to grieve - although you dont know for sure your dream is over yet....is that harder?? I dont know x All i know is I think i will be joining you I know potty shots arent great at 13wks but am sure this is a little boy too. I keep dreaming i give birth to a girl then I wake up and remind myself to stop. I hope that although it will be my last baby and it will kill me to know I will NEVER have a a girl that knowing i will have no more will stop the wondering.....not the desire for a girl but the what ifs. I will never have more than 4 kids so I will have to focus on what i do have. Sorry for waffling I just want to give you a big hug I think back to my 20wk scan with ds3 and how my world collapsed. I have everything crossed that you have a little princess in your belly and we both know even through all the pain of if we have boys we will love them so so much it just still hurts. Here if you need me hun x

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oh charlieispy, your post made me shed a little tear!! I hate GD, it is such a monster and it is so unfair that not everyone gets their DG and that there are so many people out there who go through what we all go through but without the great support we have from each other. I really pray and hope you and Babymad both have little girls cooking!! or let me correct that, I hope ALL the pregnant smog ladies have lil girls cooking!!!!! No one should have to face the end of a dream!

Inglewood I LOVE your 4D pictures!!! how amazingly cute your girls are :D :D and lovely names too!! I don't know any Ruby or Amber so to me they sound very unique which I love!! awww i'm so excited to get to be a part of your swaying, ttc and pregnancy journey :)

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Originally Posted by deaks66

Plus there is something undeniably cute about seeing a mum surrounded by little boys!! X

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Chocolate ~ Glad to hear you are feeling better! I was like you too, never allowed myself to think of a girls name until i was told i was carrying a girl.

Babymad ~ Only you know what’s right for you should you find out or not... it’s a hard decision but i do agree with the other girls when they say it sounds like not knowing is making you very unhappy. I pray you’re having a little girl, because you definitely deserve to hold a little girl in your arms after what you’ve been through!!!

Deaks ~ good luck next week! :)

Kell ~ i’ve recorded it! Was it good?

Charlieispy ~ i’m sorry to hear the headache is back. Do you usually suffer headaches in pregnancy?

Pinga ~ only 2 weeks! Eek how exciting! Are you nervous? :)

hello to everyone else!!!!

Yes sunset we are definitely lucky to have each other on here and have others who understand x x Today I thought WOW 16wks i could find out but i couldnt handle knowing its a boy for another 24wks....rather live in my bubble! I got headaches with ds2 and 3 they are like nothing i have ever had other than in pregnancy my head feels like it is in a vice its just horrible - ds3 isnt sleeping either as he is poorly so although i try not to take my cocodamol I havnt let myself as it knocks me out and with him in our bed I cant do that. So V tired and V sore head.

HIGH FIVE for getting in your jeans though!! V jealous at the mo i am feeling super F.A.T!!! Although i did take a crappy bump pic this morning will post it in a mo!

Waves to all x Inglewood beautiful beautiful pics x x definitely facially look girly too :D

http://i111.photobucket.com/albums/n...NzY4LmpwZw.jpg

excuse rubbish phone camera and smeary mirror lol x

Charlie - you look great!

Love the photos Inglewood, they're so pretty already!

Charlie you are looking fab!!!!

I agree! Charlie you look great! what a cute bump! :)

Charlie, what a cute bump! xx

Thanks for all ur lovely comments, they look kinna odd (in a nice way)..lol Leaves me wondering what they will look like when here.

Inglewood the pictures are great! And obviously they look just the same! I didn't even think that it would be so noticeable in the womb!

Charlie what a great bump! So neat! Awww can't wait to get a bump!

Oh and sunset I Love your avatar of her holding your finger!! So cute!

The programme was good, the families in it just seem so normal which I wasn't expecting! Amazing how the deal with 14 children! I wonder how on earth they afford it! I mean I'm sure they get some benefits or something but still that's alot of people to feed and clothe etc!

Thanks everyone for all your comments and support - it really is great having such a fab bunch to turn to xxx

Loving your bump Charlie x
Fab scan pics Inglewood x

Soooooo tired so off to bed x

Ah babymad - kind of know how you feel but not exactly as you had your girl at one point. Must make it harder for you, i cant imagine that pain. I don't like to think about it but it still hurts for me to. I hate to say that as I feel it belittles dave and he deserves so much more than to be my gd baby. He is worth so much more than that. Feel like I have crawled over broken glass on my bear hands and knees to get him. I do feel like we are a complete family now. Maybe if I was millionaire and younger I would do ivf but I am getting past the dd thing ( but yes it's hard - I could easily cry out why not me? Why it's not fair!) but I find it better to ignore that and think of what do I have. Besides this maybe your girl! It's not over till it's over! I could well be the only smog carrying a boy! There are so many dreams I have that can't come true. A girl is just one of them. I just feel blessed to be pg one more time. Something I didn't think I would be able to do again.

Felt I'll today. Swelling up like a hot air balloon, feel sick, pain in my cervix, can't walk hardly ( much to everyones amusement!) seeing stars. Feels like pe but without the high bp or protein. Not sure I will escape it this time but if I don't I just want it to come now so I can get it over with. It's the not knowing and waiting I hate.

Ah Charlie your bump is lovely! Mine is rock hard but unbelievably still flabby underneath!!!! How I don't know! Nature is mocking me with a bump so rock hard yet still not taking up the slack of my pre pg flab! Grrghh! It will be by knees keeping my pelvic floor company soon enough!

Inglewood so glad your scan went well x

I barely have a bump it's annoying lol
But we did manage to find the baby with my Doppler last night! :) I let dp find it, at first he was wowing at my heartbeat pmsl! Then I say keep looking it'll be much faster than that! So he did and we found it!
Ds2 had a listen as well which was cute! I can't wait to let ds1 hear it! He was at his dad's last night!

Morning all,

kell amazing news hearing the little heartbeat!

Charlie what a great bump don't think I ever had such a lovely little bump at 16 weeks!

I had more spotting well actually it was tinged pink cm yesterday when I wiped and and when I went to the loo again it was clear cm so thought I was imagining things. Then it was a browny/grey CM, then back to pink and now clear this a.m but felt wet this a.m so thought I started bleeding again but just CM sorry TMI. This is the oddest cycle i've ever had!

I went to bed last night at 5pm until-8pm when dp when dp went food shopping. And I caught up on some telly, then watched the gypsy blood programme on 4 I wished I hadn't it made me feel really sick (all the blood, killing rabbits, chickens, bambi) and so sad for those boys. Don't like to judge people from an edited documetary but it's really hard not to.

inglewood - great pictures! :D

Charlie - I can't believe how great you look and this is your 4th!! My bump is sooo much bigger - mostly due to weak posture muscles - if that makes sense! I look about 10 weeks further along than I am :P

Sunset - not really nervous about my scan. I am pretty confident we'll hear boy. I have shed a few tears late at night... but I try not to think about it.

A sad day for me. Today it is 10 years since I lost my Mum! Can't believe I've been without her for that long...

We're off tomorrow so I'll catch up with you all in about a week...

Hi all,

Aww inglewood, those little girls are soo cute! and i just love the names! Ruby was on my list too :-) sounds like you had a perfect day out too x

Maybe, i know what you mean about the guilt and that our boys deserve so much more than to be gd babies, i try not to think of the times i felt really down due to him being a boy, it turns my stomach just to think of how i felt at my 16 week scan compared to the way i feel about him now. He is such a joy to have! when people ask me if im gonna have a 4th and try for a girl (which really pisses me off) i reply that if i could have ds3's twin then i would have him tomorrow! (which shuts them up pretty sharpish) as hes so good! hes a good sleeper, good eater, a true smiler and most importantly he makes us all smile, the older boys adore him and when they talk to him he really giggles at them which just melts my heart :-)) I truley believe he was sent to me for a reason and i couldnt be happier.

Babymad.. i totally understand how you feel, and all i can say is time is a great healer :-) For me, i think i made the right choice to find out the sex and im glad i done it alone so i could get over it by myself without worrying DH, i had 4 weeks to 'mourn a dd' and by 20 weeks it wasnt so hard. We are all here for you as you all were for me :-)

Sunset, ur pics are lovely, and ur fb comment made me giggle about you in ur size 6 jeans lol, think one of my legs alone is a size 6 haha.

Love to you all x x x

Oh Pinga, a sad day for you, im sure your mum is very proud of you! x

I had a gender scan this morning and it's a boy which was no shock after seeing his willy at he 20 wk scan. Not telling anyone including DH that I know. At least I can give the pink outfit away that I kept under my bed whilst ttc and it won't be here when he arrives.
Thanks for all your kinds words xxx

Babymad - sending you some HUGE love right now x I hope you are ok x I dont really know what to write but he will be beautiful just like your other boys, and i truelly feel i will join you with 4 boys....and when i do can we please get that shared room for them all! THey will only need footballs ;) Will you tell DH before the birth or keep it to yourself x I got rid of everything pink once I knew ds3 was a boy it was hard but helped me x much love hun x

Petal - your post made me cry I could have written that myself ds3 i think i am closer to in some ways due to my GD the thought of not wanting him after my scan and looking at him now.....sitting next to me shredding toilet paper (just so i can send some emails!!) he is my dreamiest boy yet....so loving kisses everyone i think because i constantly kiss him lol! If i have 4 boys it was fate and i wasnt meant to have girls.....like DH says they will only hate you when they get older :P

Pinga - huge hugs hun what a hard day for you x cant imagine being without your mum for so long x give those boys some bigs hugs and think how proud she must be of you as she watches over you x x

lavender - ooooh your cycle is squiffy hope it sorts itself out - your never know could be O bleeding and then implantation bleeding x #FX

deaks - FX FX FX for your attempt come on BFP :D

Kell - YAY for finding the heartbeat and ds listening ds1 loves the doppler!!! Am sure your bump will pop out soon x i feel huge :S

waves to everyone else must go indy is now trying to write in ds1 homework book AArrggghhhhh

off to a spa tomorrow though so got to find a cossie and shave :S not looking forward to getting my plump out x

Just popped on before going to bed...

Oh Babymad - HUGE hugs!!! I hope you are doing ok.... I know there is nothing really that I can say... I always think of my brother when I feel particularly sad. He was soooo close to my Mum and he always got around her with a hug and some sweet-talking. He always had time out to see her! So we can and WILL have close and special relationships with our boys!!
Take care, hon.