MIka,
I really appreciate your wonderful thoughts!.
After these past two My DH is devastated, and I am in shock on how hard he's taking it. He did not talk to me all day Monday and is extremely hurt that I took it so lightly when I got the positive pregnancy and period shortly and now he's begging that we don't stop ttc and is pretty much throwing in the towel as far as swaying, he said he wants to do the minimal as possible regarding swaying but wants to continue trying. I am so sad he feels this way and im stuck because i know weight loss for me and exercising sways girl :(. I know that for fact because all of my girls were conceived during times where I was in the process of loosing weight and exercising.
What would I do in this situation? I was so overly joyed when AF came because I was ready to get back to my skinny self, but my DH actually cried to me in disbelief that I did not care. How do I go on from this? I feel that I am taking his dreams of being a daddy again away. A friend who also tried motivating me back in exercising and harassed me about going back to the gym as she has been my gym buddy and she was making comments & telling me that my DH does not want to see me fit as he was jealous and self conscious about himself and she suggested i tie my tubes behind his back and not have anymore children, but I come to find out she's desperately trying to get pregnant and I kinda think she was a bit jealous of my ttc and she doesn't want me to beat her to the punch. I'm in a pickle now, and I am still determined to get the DH in shape, but what would I do for my self? Should I lie and go back on birth control pills or keep trying? My heart tells me yes lets do this and my mind says no lets get in shape :(. My DH has also been telling my little one to tell me that she wants a baby brother. I am so torn right now.

