Oh, Lord, please don't let it last that long. I'm holding on to the hope that it will be over in just a few weeks.
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Oh, Lord, please don't let it last that long. I'm holding on to the hope that it will be over in just a few weeks.
I have my "meet with the OB nurse" appointment in the morning, and dh got called back to work (after being home for all of 4 hours). So, I have to take the kids with me. Lol. I have already told them to pick out two chapter books each, just in case, because they will be sitting in the waiting room. The 2yo will have to go in with me and the iPad. ;)
I hate this appt because its not "real." It's going through a checklist and getting a bag of prenatal samples. I'm really hoping that they will let me go ahead and schedule my nt scan so maybe dh can go. He's upset that he has not been able to see the baby yet.
Shell- do you have to go? Lol unless they were checking the baby I'd skip it
Normally this would be the first u/s, too. But since we saw the hb at 5w5d, they see no need to do another until the nt scan.
oh hun :( you totally made me well up!!! I just wish I could click my fingers and make everyone get there desired gender!! How are you feeling today? You need to take time to grieve for your 'dd' don't feel ashamed by it I'm glad your dh wanted a girl just as much because at least you can get through this together, it would be a lot harder if he didn't understand!! I know it doesn't help but this little man clearly could see what a fantastic mummy you are to the boys and choose you to be his too, he will be so loved by u and every1!! When your feeling up to it you should pop to next to buy him some cute onesies they have some super gorgeous boys clothes right now!
Please remember we are all here for you so if u need to cry scream and rant come do it to us!
Huge hugs my love xxx
:hugs: tiff . Im so sorry you are hurting, wish i had the words to make it right, I am sure he will be a very special little boy.
Im sure it will all fade away once you hold him in your arms, thats what all the other mumma's seem to say so surely they must be right.
Treat yourself to some special 'you' time, a massage, or a manicure, or buy yourself something special - or go and by something cute and blue...maybe looking at newborn pics of your boys might help..
Hope you start feeling better soon, sending you lots of hugs
Thank you hun. I didn't sleep all night. Also have got up this morning absolutely sobbing. I really thought I would be stronger than this. I don't want to even get out of bed I feel physically ill :(
The thoughts I've been having are so horrible like I really wish I wasn't pg. how selfish and disgusting is that!!!!!
The tech at the place was so cruel too he started scanning me and said 'ooo lovely nothing between the legs!!!'
Dh replied 'you'd better be sure before you tell her that!'
Which he replied 'oh no wait sorry it's a boy look'
I can't get it out of my head! xx
He should have never opened his mouth until he was certain - that is very unprofessional!
you are NOT selfish, and you are certainly NOT disgusting. You are a human, with feelings, desires, emotions - all of which are perfectly normal, and on top of that, the courage to open up about how you feel...and here you have a bunch of women who understand, and will 'hold your hand' through this.
Your feelings are normal, please dont burden yourself with guilt, let yourself grieve, let it all out and then by the time the little man is due, it should be easier.
And yes, the tech's a moron, shouldn't have made comments before looking and being certain himself.
Take care xo