I know its disheartening when things don't go to plan but hang in there!! Try and see the positive I guess which is your cycle being off may be swaying pink for you as well 😀 You sound so sad :( I just want to give you a big hug! Why not treat yourself to something and do something for you like a long bath, or reading, a dvd, anything to take your mind off things...
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