Originally Posted by
Chocolatina
I’ve Atomic, how do I know if I crossed the line with the visualisation. I managed to turn the sway into my lifestyle and I hardly put any efforts in eating LE or walking every day. But my desire for a girl is so strong, I am not sure how not to think about it. I don’t specifically sit to close my eyes and picture the pink baby, but my inner hope is just huge. Sometimes I catch myself thinking “ C’mon, egg, please welcome X before Y this time, would you!”. I don’t do it intentionally, but I feel it like my wish for a girl for the moment is like those unreachable or impossible wishes that can never turn real. I’ve been in such a situation before as a kid (family tragedy) and it feels the same now- that whatever I do it will just not happen and that’s that. I’ve wanted a girl ever since getting married so strongly that I cried for a week when I was told my first baby’s going to be a boy. During my second pregnancy I swore I would not do that, but was a bit disappointed for not having a girl again. Frustrating...