Originally Posted by
littlemisswilko
i was going to find out at 16 weeks and i kept going on the site to book it and then at the end when i had to pay for it, i just couldnt click the book apointment tab. im just so scared to find out. im dreading it. at the moment im just happy in my little bubble and i dont want to hear something i dont want to. when i think about it, it makes me feel sick. i carnt bring myself to go public with it on fb as i dont think i can handle all the gender comments that will come with it and then i keep thinking to myself when will i go public?? if i leave it too long will ppl think ive been keeping it as a secret?
OH's mother and grand mother keep asking me when my 20 week scan is and i keep lying to them saying 'i havent had my appointment through yet but it will be sometime in april' just so happens i do have my scan date which is the beggining of april but i just dont want the pressure of them knowing im going etc. they keep asking are you going to find out what your having??? and i keep saying im not sure but i dont think so and thy reply with aww you have to find out, you did with the boys and its nice to know what your having so you can be ready for it. then his gran turned round and said you have to put us out of our misery! i was like misery???? you honestly dont know the meaning of the word!
apart from that im quite happy within myself at the moment and thats all that counts i guess. my own mam and sister asked me if i was finding out what im having at the 20 week scan (again they dont know when it is) but i dont really feel they put too much pressure on me! when i told them im not sure my sister did ask me how come and i told her i havent had a suprise yet and she said i suppose and she did say thats why i didnt want to find out with her 3rd boy so i do think she understands how i feel in a way.