Originally Posted by
girlmom
thanks girls, yea im still pregnant. im kinda hoping it just ends soon. i hate this feeling i have. im so scared i won't make it to the hospital on time. im scared my hubby wil be at work and it takes me about half an hour to contact him. im scared the girls will be at school and someone will have to pick them up. i have 30 min labors after my water breaks and right now i have a bulging bag, no way i will ever make it to the big hospital with the nicu. plus this feeling like he's going to fall out all day. he's just sitting on whats left of my cervix and thats not much. i feel like such a crappy mother for not hanging in there like everyone else, i feel even worse for secretly hoping he comes out soon. i hate this guilty feeling i have. i had a 4th of july birth at a birthing center all planned out too, now i just want do something stupid like go for a walk or play outside with my girls. i hate bedrest.