why is this getting to me?

And a very good friend of mine is 12 weeks pregnant this weekend. She has 1 girl and 2 boys. This baby was a surprise and she really wants another dd. I'm afraid if I hear she is having a girl it will tear me up. It's so awful to write and feel like this. It's not the kind of person I am, but gd is stinky like that. I hope I'm pregnant by then so it may not bother me as much. And to boot, she seems to be a copy cat. Every time I get pregnant she does. And I started talking about having another baby with her in Jan or Feb. We were kidding around about getting pregnant behind my husband's back. I said I could never do that, and amazingly enough she gets pregnant a few months later "accidentally".

Although i always wanted a girl, i never wanted more than one. It was important for me though that any sons had brothers. My ideal family was two boys and a girl, i have three boys am now desperate for my girl to give a slightly extended dream family lol

i am so happy for you that you got your girl. whereas i do feel gd quite badly when others get their girls without even trying especially when they don't even appreciate what they've got gd never comes into it when a mom in my position gets her girl. I suppose its because i know exactly what it means to you, you deserve you daughter and you will have my version of an ideal family enjoy them and don't let her get to you thats probably why she's done it in the first place some people just enjoy getting at others

Oh, threemenalady, I know how you feel!!! Right after finding out DS2 was a boy, we were eating lunch and DH could see how sad I was, and he said, "we can try for a girl next." and that just made me day, and I started to enjoy the thought of my older son having a brother, and it really helped my gender desire.

Beadinmom, yeah, I don't even know why I bother talking to her on Facebook. She really, deeply hurt me at my other job because I thought and I told her numerous times things said were supposed to stay in confidence, but she wanted a promotion, so she kissed the supervisor's butt and spilled the beans, but of course, added more than what I had said, making it even WORST! I've thought about turning it around, like you said, but it's just so not me....the thought makes me smile though :) but I can't imagine myself playing the game with her like that...think I'm just gonna walk away from it.

Mrs_P, thank you so much for your kind words! It hits me all the time that I am lucky that I am getting the little lady that I have desired my whole life. I so sincerely hope your next baby, ThreeMenandaLady, and BeadinMom all get GIRLS!! You ladies truly, honestly deserve the girlies!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Thanks Auroara and Mrs. P. This site is so addictive because women like you are on it. Full of encouragement and well wishes. It means so much to me. Mrs. P, I'll be stalking you like crazy hoping you get your dd. Are you ttc right now? I don't know much about everyone yet, but I'd like to.