Depression in Pregnancy??

Thanks, fairy. :) Your kind words help a lot!

I'm just super frustrated and kinda pissed that this is happening around the holidays. I freaking love Christmas, dammit, and I hate that it's ruining it this year! SUCKS!

I did go back on my Zoloft a few months ago but unfortunately I think it's doing weird things this time around. Which means I'm back to having to figure out the right med. ARGH. I think I'm in a med-induced 'mixed state' right now which is new to me and really is hard. The only thing keeping me hanging on is being there for my kids. I'm thankful that I've btdt so I know this isn't ME, it's the illness. Still stinks though.

I think you're very, very wise to limit yourself to the 6 weeks. Alas, I'm more stubborn than you, lol, it's the boy mom thing and I just don't want to give up the dream! But I have relaxed a lot more on the diet and we're giving up frequency. I really hope I get the egg this month and can go back to my healthier eating ways and kick this stupid depression.

I've started a new thread on this stuff for anyone who's interested in joining in and sharing/commiserating/looking for some company:

http://genderdreaming.com/forum/chit...razypants.html

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Originally Posted by LacePrincess

Thanks, fairy. :) Your kind words help a lot!

I'm just super frustrated and kinda pissed that this is happening around the holidays. I freaking love Christmas, dammit, and I hate that it's ruining it this year! SUCKS!

I did go back on my Zoloft a few months ago but unfortunately I think it's doing weird things this time around. Which means I'm back to having to figure out the right med. ARGH. I think I'm in a med-induced 'mixed state' right now which is new to me and really is hard. The only thing keeping me hanging on is being there for my kids. I'm thankful that I've btdt so I know this isn't ME, it's the illness. Still stinks though.

I think you're very, very wise to limit yourself to the 6 weeks. Alas, I'm more stubborn than you, lol, it's the boy mom thing and I just don't want to give up the dream! But I have relaxed a lot more on the diet and we're giving up frequency. I really hope I get the egg this month and can go back to my healthier eating ways and kick this stupid depression.

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It really isn't fair! I would probably be more hard core if I hadn't already had one girl. My kids are my ground. When I start getting crazy I meditate on every time they smiled or laughed. It has actually prevented me from crossing the line of no return. I will pray that you get your girl BFP this month so that you can move to a happier place.

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Originally Posted by fairyfrog

It really isn't fair! I would probably be more hard core if I hadn't already had one girl. My kids are my ground. When I start getting crazy I meditate on every time they smiled or laughed. It has actually prevented me from crossing the line of no return. I will pray that you get your girl BFP this month so that you can move to a happier place.

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Yes! This!

Omg, thank's for posting this fairy. I honestly can't hear it enough at this point.

I'm very thankful that DS3 is still young enough to be home all day, being 'mom' and 'happy and loving' for him is the only thing that's keeping me hanging on. I hate this illness, I hate how it likes to eat your brain and how even though you KNOW better it's so difficult to see around the deception in your mind.

It's so beyond bizarre. It's like the Matrix, yk? You know it's not real, but it's damned convincing, and omg does the illness ever lie convincingly.

Ugh, I tried to type out what I'm going through right now but I don't think I'll do it here. I can't deal with judgement and this stuff being on a public forum, it sounds too nutty to someone who hasn't been in our heads. Suffice it to say that I'm grateful that the motherly instinct is stronger than the crazy. :)