I understand what you're saying. I am having a really hard pg with #5 right now and also having some GD, but I'm happy to give DD a sister and I'm happy to give DH another girl b/c he wanted this one to be a girl... but when *I* was a little girl I always wanted BBGB for my family... I got G first, so I really want to have baby #6 to at least end with B... even though I also really like the idea of evening out to 6 kiddos. It's hard for me b/c I worry about if I don't have a successful sway and get another DD will I have an even harder time than I am now? Do I really want to go through another hard pg? It's a lot to think over... but in the end I know I will love another baby. Plus DH always seems to get what he wants and said he'll want a boy again next time :p