My sway baby is now in Heaven

I am so sorry. :(

Im so sorry Hun, I really hope u find strength to move forward

How heart breaking, I'm so so sorry. I hope you are able to find peace...

I am so sorry.

I'm so sorry got your loss

So sorry. How are you coping now? Sending you warm hugs 💛


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I received confirmation today that it was, in fact, a partial molar pregnancy.
My doctor recommends waiting six months after HcG goes back to 0 for three consecutive weeks. She said if my #s fall and stay down, I might be cleared to conceive in late June or July's cycle since my HcG was never too high and I'm already healing well (symptoms gone, feeling non-pregnant. Sigh). Fingers crossed.
Right now, my heart is so shattered. I want to plan my sway on a July estimated date just so my Type-A brain can have something to fantasize about (now I sound nutty, haha).
Thanks for the love and support.

Today, I went in for my first post-D&C blood draw (first of like, 20 million it seems) and I found out more awful news.
It was a TWIN molar pregnancy... so, a baby (who we saw the heartbeat for) an a molar twin (the egg that got hit with two sperm).

It is just one blow after another. I am so full of anger and rage I feel like I could explode. If anyone has coping suggestions please send me a message. I'm talking to everyone, leaning on faith and spirituality, letting myself grieve, but I can't go on feeling so angry and sad all the time. I feel just lost. I just want my lucky #3 and knowing that I "can't" get pregnant until this fall is a real kick in the... well, ya know.

So sorry for your loss xx

All you can do is give it time. You have every right to be angry.
I had 4 babies without a problem the bang; 5th pregnancy was a missed mc at 12 weeks. It has made me the most scared, anxious and paranoid pregnant person ever but I couldn't let a mc be my last pregnancy experience.
I really hope time goes quickly for you and you get another beautiful baby (girl!) X