Weezie, thank you. I feel just the same. It just doesn't seem real. We were estranged bc she was psychotic but that almost makes it seem worse. The more time goes on (2mo now), I keep thinking of things I want to know but now can never ask her. I totally understand relaxing the diet especially since you were close.
Since you have 3 boys and a failed sway I would be strict. Up yoursugar intake to increase cals. I guarantee if you drink enough soda/wine (with meals obviously) you will not lose weight! In fact I'd try very hard NOT to lose any weight at all, just eat poor quality/low nutrient food and especially keep fat low and stay veggie. I really want to see you get your girl!

