I feel the same way. I had planned on ttc next year and hadn't started my sway yet. At least you got a sway started. There are some things this time around that were done differently than with my last two boys so I keep telling myself that I might be lucky enough to have gotten my girl out of pure luck. But I don't want to get my hopes up either. I keep obsessing about the small things that might sway boy and convincing myself that I'm just meant to have boys. I know I should be happy either way but I really wanted a third to be the little girl. Last night I had an awful thought that if this wasn't a girl then all this extra work would be for nothing. I feel so terrible for thinking that and now I'm trying to convince myself it's a boy just to not be sad if it really is.