Originally Posted by
nini
Its a boy. Looking all good and healthy and I am thrilled to be expecting another sweet son. I am also very sad that my dream, my life dream of having 2 daughters has now forever ended. I never planned much in my life, apart from being a mother and my family always had 2 girls in my dreams. It will take me some time to get over this. I love this little boy already, but I wish he had brought along a twin sister.
I might have another child, but not for the next years. I need to work my way through my emotions first. Ask myself why I wanted daughters so badly, more than one. Isnt it my own childhood that I need to make up for? Should my daughters really be responsible to be born to make up for their mothers missed childhood? I have one healthy daughter and am so grateful for her, just like for my healthy sons. I am blessed. But right now need some time. I will be back soon, just need a break. I dont think I will sway again, I have to get my spirit into the mode where swaying does not matter anymore, where I will trust God to give me what is right.