I tried throwing a stick into the ocean for my dog and it was so pathetic! I'm too yucky feeling to go work out but man!! All my muscle mass is kaput! So sad:( better be a girl!!! ;)
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I tried throwing a stick into the ocean for my dog and it was so pathetic! I'm too yucky feeling to go work out but man!! All my muscle mass is kaput! So sad:( better be a girl!!! ;)
Heeh! I feel flabbier than usual, too... yet while losing weight. Must be those empty calories!
Tonight I cooked bok choy to make a cheesy mashed potato and bok choy for my son. I had to cook the whole thing because it needed to be used up. I cooked it in olive oil without thinking because at the time I was cooking for him then decided to add a few bok choy to my dinner... but it was cooked in olive oil! Oh well, one day can't hurt...
Prayforprincess- how r u? Haven't seen you posting much. Guessing you are trying not to get too focused on ttc this cycle... Hope your well :)
Here I am!!
I am so happy to be reading about all you having hard times on the diet. I have been awful!!!!
And I am o-ing today -- I feel so terrible that the diet part of my sway is just out.
We used repHresh every 3 days, took SP, baby aspirin and zyrtec & dh took 2 LR daily. He fr daily. Then we dtd o-5 in the pm(that probably did not live to oday) and in the mornings o-3, o-2 j&d immediately and o-1 j&d immediately. I did not eat for the past 3 weeks til at least noon, sometimes later. I would have to say in the 3 weeks, I was maybe on the LE diet for 14 out of the 21 days. The other 7 days I still skipped breakfast but I did not count my calorie etc. I know for a fact I went over on those day big time. Although I did try to at least eat "girl foods" -- like pasta, rice etc, staying veggie. I did drink way too much alcohol too -- oh well. Oh, and I had seafood 2 of those cheat nights, and a cheeseburger on another one of them (July 4th, I could not help myself).
Unfortunately where I have had most my cheat days are the week leading up to o. And I did not lose a pound. I did at first, and then this week with all the cheating and drinking (oops) it all came back.
I don't know what to think. Watch me get pg this month when I was so bad. I honestly think its 50/50. I think my swaying part was good, but the diet part is what might kill me. But then I think there are millions upon millions of women who conceived dd's not on a diet, so who knows. It's just that with my dh and the probability of us having another ds, if I was not going to be on a diet I would totally do a one time bd with abstaining. That would be our only hope. So, I pray that with a poor girl diet and dtd multiple times leading up to o (although i did lower his count and do j&d immediately) it is enough to sway girl -- hell swaying is not enough I need a girl!
How long had you been on the diet overall? Longer than 21 days or just this general 21 day period? Don't worry about it!
I had a bubble tea today. I haven't had one in years and we were out picking up my fixed macbook (yay!) and I saw the stall in the middle of the mall... and I HAD TO HAVE ONE. It's one of my favorites and I've never seen it over in the UK before for some reason? There are worst things, I'm sure... but it was like 12oz of milk + matcha green tea powder + tapioca balls... but, = deliciousness. Mmm!
I still don't think it will take me over much today, but it was like well after lunch and way before dinner (which I'm going to make here shortly...) so... a snack! GASP!
We're only human... don't stress. I'm trying to let go of my naughtiness... sigh. However, Friday at work I had 5 shortbread cookies. Who eats 5? The end of the week before that, I ate like 6 cupcakes. 6!!! This diet makes me binge like crazy. I'll think, "Oh, one will be all right..." but my body seriously throws me over the edge and screams, "More. More! MORE!!!! Don't be a fool - FEED ME MORE!" and I obey.
I wish my weight loss was better (my usual/average weight is around 118-120 and I'm 114 at the moment) but, gotta get pregnant... just have to do what I have to do. Most people just try to get pregnant and want a baby so I'm trying to stay in that mindset... I just want a baby, boy or girl. I want a sibling for my son and a second child. Although my husband said out of nowhere last night when he got home from work, "Gena, I was just thinking on the ride home from work... no, we HAVE to have a girl!" I was like, "Geez, what the hell? Pressure much, dude?!"
Heeheeh.
Also... I'm feeling crampy in my ovary-areas... not painful... just brooding there... lurking, quietly twinging. Does that even make sense? Hahaha.
I hope I'm revving up... I've not drunk anything since I got home to try to use an OPK again. My creamy CM seems to be getting a slight stretch to it (but breaks before it stretches an inch kind)... so waiting! Hopefully soonish?!
ah was thinking of you when i heard that on the telly, hope you n yours okay xQuote:
Originally Posted by suregena
Thankfully - they were all being overly cautious! It only ever got halfway to the river levels of what it was a couple weeks ago - phew!
However, I got to leave work early on Friday because of the overly cautiousness... so, bonus!
My husband went out and got soy milk for me and I told him to get the real cheap stuff that pretty much doesn't have anything bonus added to it... and he came back with the more pricey stuff that has added calcium and vitamins! I'm scared to drink it... :( but I did use it in my coffee this morning... I had to have coffee! Should I steer clear for the rest of the day or will it matter that much considering my diet?
I was doing my ht cycle last month so was not on the diet. I was on it earlier this year for 12 weeks, and then went off at the end of March. I just want to get pg and I see so many women with dd's and eat like crap etc. -- why can't I?
The worst part of it is that I have been on and off the diet. And I am still not eating all day long. Like I only drink 1 cup coffee in the am with equal, and then have a tiny yogurt at noon. That's it. But then come 6pm, I make mysself a drink and then have some app's and dinner. And I have been trying not to eat boy foods -- like I'll make a pasta dish, or worst case chicken etc. And I have been gaining weight! Not good.
Its like my not eating all day is keeping my metabolism low that when i do eat at night, it just all packs on.
Sucks.
So I have issues now. I totally thought I would o yesterday but I did not!
I am o-ing today. I got a +opk Saturday at 2pm and Sunday at 8am (its was - by 2pm). My temp was so low on Saturday and shot up yesterday -- so I thought for sure that o was sometime yesterday early afternoon.
But, this morning I woke to -opk's and my temp shot back down really low. So I know o is today.
Now I am unsure of our attempts and whether it will be enough.
If o infact is today, and I am having o pains on the left as I type -- then our attempts were:
o-4: in the am and that was a good one. He released deep inside, had been 36 hours since last release, was on the 3rd day of rephresh(I insterted a new one 1 hour after dtd so it would not affect that attempt) and I layed there for 40 minutes before getting up
o-3: in the am. It had been 24 hours since used the rephresh, it was shallow release and I jump and dumped immediately after.
o-2: 48 hours since last rephresh, less shallow release (like 1/2 and 1/2) and again I j&d like 20 seconds after.
I guess I just feel like my o-4 was a solid attempt, but the other 2 closer to o were not as solid cause I j&d immediately. I don't know why, but I guess I just presume its harder to get pg with j&d (probably b/c it is).
Anyhow, when I got my +opk at o-2 I was like, "ok we are done" cause I usually o the next day. So since then my dh has not released, nor taken his LR supplements.
Question: Do we dtd again tonight???
Unintentionally, it would be more of a o+12 for sure. We are having friends over for their birthday dinner and realistically we are not going to dtd until 10pm. It would be a lot of sperm and considerably boy abstaining (2.5 days since his last release). That is a bit scary. It will be 48 hours since my last application of Rephresh. And what if there is already enough in there; but then again what if there is not? Plus, other than not eating pretty much all day til dinner and keeping my glucose low -- I am not on the LE, though its not like I am doing my usual boy routine either (I never eat pasta and carbs etc., and usually eat way more meat and graze through the day -- I don't skip meals).
Anyhow, sorry so long, what to do?
Maybe switch and eat the main meal at lunch so you still have a period of activity to move it through your system and eat the smaller meal/snack at night? I wonder if that would help?Quote:
Originally Posted by prayforprincess
I am having some twingey twingertons in my ovaries today... had some stretchy mucus a couple times (not a ton... hello, cetirizine!) so I feel like it's got to happen sometime this week... still negative OPK but I'm waiting for it...
Fingers crossed you O soon!!Quote:
Originally Posted by suregena
So, our town had a flash flood again today.... ugh. I joked on facebook that I was glad these kept happening on weekends but if it happened during the week I might not complain so I didn't have to go into work, and my coworker said I had to go in tomorrow because she hears there will be cake.
Argh... this job... and the cake/cookies/chocolate constantly. THAT will be the downfall of my overall sway... when I am that rushed/cranky/stressed at work, it's about the only pick up there is (I work in a busy hospital.) I have a hard time saying "No thanks."
That is so hard when you have temptation in your face day after day. I work from home so I never have to worry about it or I would have a hard time saying no too.
I decided to take my 10 DPO cheat meal last night and I so regret it! I had an appetizer platter - some fried cheese sticks, loaded potato skins, and some southwest rolls. I seriously felt like I was going to throw up after I ate it and I didn't even eat that much! Ughh....thinking about it makes me queasy! I never thought I would feel this way about a cheat meal! I need to pick better ones next time!
You should test beachygrl! Or are you waiting?
I would not worry about your cheat. If you are pg then it affects nothing at all. Gender is already decided and more than likely the little bean is already implanted anyhow.
Yesterday was o day for me. So now I'm in my wait. We decided to dtd again last. I know I ovulated in the morning, early afternoon latest (because of the pains) so I figure if the 2 day cutoff was going to get me pg I would have already been by 11pm last night. If it didn't then I guess I still have a o+12 attempt that could work. I j&d immediately though because it had been 2.5 days since our last attempt.
I was not trying for "girl" timing -- it just worked out that way.
I have to say, I am kinda nervous about our attempt last night. I don't know why. My concern was not with timing but with too much sperm.
I keep telling myself though that it did not add to what was already there. If what was there was enough it would have already fertilized the egg already before we dtd.
Do you all agree? I didn't botch it all up did I?
I have been testing and have gotten BFNs. I only have one test left and I am going to wait until Friday if AF hasn't shown. I really feel like I have a lot of pregnancy symptoms, but am trying not to get my hopes up! I finally had my time to cheat and it wasn't what I wanted at all....hoping that is a pregnancy symptom! :bigsmile: My temp is still over 98 too!Quote:
Originally Posted by prayforprincess
I had planned on the 10DPO cheat b/c you want to still keep environment favorable for implantation.
I think your attempt was just fine and you didn't mess anything up!
I ended up forgetting my lunch today! Seriously!!! I was starving and ended up eating cake and three + wedges of it. :( I feel really ill right now. Like, completely sick to my stomach from so much sugar but nothing else. If I actually get hungry tonight, I'll eat an iceberg salad... otherwise, today was a nightmare! I can't believe I forgot my lunch...
My AF started on 7/3, I have been monitoring by using my OV sticks, but just one line. My DH started FR Sunday, and I think I should have a positive OPK around CD 12 (which is 7/14), but may be wrong because doesn't Vitex have some effect?? I took it for the first time, so don't know what it will really do.
Kind of irritated with DH and don't feel like DTD anytime soon ;( Maybe tomorrow night we will start...
Should I start Rephresh today? I have not noticed really any CM yet. I have been dropping weight, but I did read on someone else's post that she is cold constantly at night and may have something to do with diet. I have been really cold at night too, takes me awhile to warm up - odd!
if you think about it though -- soooooo many women who are having girls or have had dd's, in fact all women except us :) eat whatever they want after conception and there was no problem with implantation.Quote:
Originally Posted by NCBeachyGrl
Have a cheat!
TBH I think atomic just knows us boys mums! if she said you eat whaever you like after o we'd all put on a stone after o and then panic when af arrived and we wanted to try again and had just put on a whole heap of weight - i think you'll be fine xxQuote:
Originally Posted by prayforprincess
ps maybe just me ;-)
That is what I worry about too! I want to stick to the diet in case I don't get pg!! Which, it looks like for me is going to be the case. I have a massive head ache and temp dropped some today. UGHH!Quote:
Originally Posted by fish2012
I too got a temp drop today at 12dpo, so looks my first attempt didn't work :( The thought of being on the diet another month really depresses me at the moment!
me too it's only my second month trying! i'm lame!
AF showed today so on to month 2! I have put everything on my calendar so I know exactly when to do things and go into "auto-pilot" mode.
This time I am going to make sure I take Rephresh the day before my attempt - I haven't had any CM for a month as it is! I am also going to stop Zyrtec 2 days before our attempt and I am going to BD closer to O. We ended up with a 2 day cut off last time. I am also going to DTD missionary instead of on top. I hope it all works! Any other suggestions? Do you think doing it twice the day before O and once on O day is enough?
I am officially very unhappy with my diet and willpower, period.
After doing so good... the work week has been intense at work, I've felt weak and stressed, and there has been a lot of treats/cake half of this week and I've eaten it... three days in a row. I've tried to work my lunch/dinners around the guilty binges as best as I could within LE diet guidelines (although my own guidelines are lower because I won't and don't lose weight otherwise.)
I feel immense guilt. Cannot believe I can't just say no. Obviously my hormones are still so out of wack from swaying that even soy can't make my cycle normal, so there's that. My husband says to let it go and don't beat myself up over cakey binges this week, but can't help it. :/
To punish myself... I'm NOT eating dinner. :( It's 7pm and I'm already feeling hungry! However... I have been *snacking* today... on CAKE AND CHOCOLATE.
Today I've eaten coffee with soy milk (x 4!!!)... probably 7 pieces of bitesize chocolates, 5 tiny slices of cake (it was like a tiny loaf cake, so they were small... probably 2 inches width/height), 4 mini plain ring donuts! I SUCK!!!!! I AM SO SO SO BAD! For lunch, I had a side salad... with fat free vinagerette... 1 white pita. So it's a day of fat and sugar. My totals are probably around 1,450 - 1,550 (give or take)... 53g fat (give or take), 22g protein (gasp!)
I've been trying to keep my calorie intake around 1,200 because I don't really lose weight otherwise (I'm petite and already vegetarian...)
:/ And yesterday, and the day before... (cakecakecake... my job is EVIL! I wish people would stop trying to boost work colleague morale with all the treats... )
:( I suppose I could have been *snacking* on worse things... and for the most part I have stayed within LE guidelines, just not my own guidelines... but, ehg. Angry with myself.
Still negative OPK. Cervix is high... but it's hard to get any cm on my fingers. Must be the antihistimine. It feels soft and open, though...
And just my luck, I'll probably get a positive OPK tomorrow... and I won't be seeing my husband until Sunday night! :(
I'm debating on DTD tonight or tomorrow morning (or both?!) just in case that happens. :(
We've DTD twice so far. CD17 and last night (CD19)...
God, I'm so going to have another son... ALL because of the last three days! Watch! :(
Sorry you are having such a hard time with the diet. Don't beat yourself over it and finish the day with a cheat. AS says it isn't one meal or one day, but rather a trend with dieting.
I wonder if you have been eating too less calories and that is what is causing your really long cycles?
Looking through my diet log... I've actually been eating more than I had aimed for every day this time compared to last month, hence my weight just sitting as it is (which is annoying and disappointing and I wish I was 5lbs lighter than I am)! I don't get it... I'm only irregular when I sway.
Feeling a little better today as my weight went down a little, not up. *phew* :/
My OPK cheapie is the "darkest" it's ever been but digital is still negative (and the stick itself looks no different to the other ones.) I have three left of each... grrr! I can't believe I've already blown through an expensive 20 pack OPK box.
We DTD this a.m. as I won't see DH until Sunday night now.
Sounds like O could be coming soon if you got a dark cheapie. I really hope it happens soon and you get pg this cycle. How many attempts are you planning on doing?
Well, at this point... however many until I'm sure I've O'd. We've had three so far.
# of attempts is something I am really struggling with. I REALLY want to get pg and I just feel like with all the swaying supplements and RePhresh, and FR, that I need more swimmers to make it to the egg. But, I don't want to get into the boy zone with lots of swimmers! Ughh. Trying not to obsess b/c I don't want to raise T!
I'm right there with you. Unfortunately, I just really want to be pregnant this month. I only have 1 child (my son) so I feel like it's definitely not the end if it's another boy as I REALLY want my son to have some sort of sibling close in age. At this rate, I felt like we've messed around long enough... so I can see why my husband is starting to no longer be supportive of this "little experiment." We're both vegetarian, as-is, so I'm trying to hold onto that, too... so even if it doesn't work this month and we drop everything and just TTC in normal circumstances, that we still have a shot.
So I can see if you already have more than one boy how you'd REALLY want to do everything to the letter. I'm trying to let that go now... it's hard, though. :/
Exactly!!!! This will be my last child (I say that now) so I do want to try everything possible within my means. I do have to say that my GD was so much worse when we were TTC#2. I also thought that would be my last child. LOL! I think I have just come to terms that I am a boy mom and really all of this is up to God. My DH reminds me everyday that we can sway all we want, but in the end it isn't up to us. He is a big gym buff and he bought these hard core supplements but I am not letting him take them until I get a BFP. They are sitting on the counter in the kitchen and I know it is just a matter of time before he caves in and starts taking them. So...time is not on my side!
I think you have a great chance at a girl. Reduced fertility....obviously with your long cycles....and being vegetarian!
How much weight have you lost? I hope you get a BFP this cycle! I really do!
To go from clockwork 27 day cycles to super loooong cycles only whilst swaying, I guess... reduced fertility, but geez I feel like it was just too easy to cause this. Maybe I've always just been right and anything less is what throws me off since I already don't eat meat. Maybe I am just more girl-friendly than I think.
I don't know... I sure used to eat a lot of girl unfriendly things. My love of guacamole/avocados/burritos is high! I'd eat an avocado and cheese sandwich for lunch as often as I could buy decent avocados. I love fried eggs. I love beans and indian food (lentils/chickpeas/etc).... probably merely even *not* eating that stuff is all I needed to do, ha! I'll never really know since I initially went into this HARDCORE in Dec/Jan, going from my usual 118-120 down to 103 (not good...) and gave up before I even ovulated (55 day cycle)... then this last cycle was 50 day cycle though I only got down to 112lbs as I was trying not to be as restrictive. I had positive tests so I started cautiously eating normally again only for them to go negative again and me put on 5lbs like *that*... so started out again around 118 and now I've been hovering at 114-115 for EVER this cycle. So, as times goes on... I'm losing grip, I guess!
I'm still not eating burritos or any of that super healthy stuff, unless you count grapes/strawberries/mushrooms/salad healthy! Skipping breakfast, etc. I think the cake binges I keep having at work, however, certainly don't help weight loss.
I really want to eat an avocado now.
Thank you!!! :highfive:
DH wouldn't let me buy a scale....he knew I would obsess....but I started in a size 8 and now I am between a 4 and 6 so I want to say I have lost like 10 pounds or so since May. I really notice the big difference in my arms now. They look like an old person...skin and bones. I am naturally taller and thinner. I have that awkward look - long legs, no muscle tone anyways. I do worry that I might get to a place soon where too much weight loss will mess with my cycle. Your diet before sounds so good and healthy! Subway has all those avocado commercials now...always makes me want to try it!!!
Fingers crossed for your BFP soon too!!! If I were you, I would seriously be BD'ing every day leading up to O and a few days after it is confirmed just to make sure I caught that egg!!!!! I think your long cycle will get you your girl!!