Sending prayers to you and your angel...
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Sending prayers to you and your angel...
I'm so sorry, I wish with all my might you hadn't had to go through this, it's so unfair....you have got through the worst bit sweetheart, you're going to feel terribly dazed, I don't think I stopped crying for days, weeks, but gradually you'll heal, be patient and gentle with yourself, go with your feelings and let it all out! I found it helped to write and write and write, mostly on here. I hope the labour was somehow cathartic for you, when I look back on my labours, I think all the hours of crying and pain got a lot of emotion out of me, although it was horrendous at the time...your angel will always be with you I promise, she'll be in your heart and mind forever, I promise they stay with us, just this winter I've had a single Violet grown outside my back door, I never planted it and it's winter, it shouldn't be there, but she is...I know my Violet & Primrose are with me and your angel will always be too xx sending hugs, love and I pray for peace to be laid on your heart x
Am crying for you. Rest in peace little angel…she is getting so much love from all around the world and you are too..
Rest in peace sweet angel xxx
I am now home with my sweet boys and hubby. My littles has been so sweet and has not left my side and gives lots of hugs and kisses, it helps a lot. I feel like it has all been a bad dream and somehow it is not real but I know it is.
I thank everyone for the kind words and the wisdom from those that have been the same heartbreaking experience, it has helped me greatly.
I am so sorry, I have been thinking about you constantly. Happy though that you are back with your boys and hubby.
I am sorry if this is insensitive, but I hope you were able to spend the time you needed with your little angel. I don't know what protocol is in Australia and if they give you the time you need.
It is not insensitive, and am happy to answer especially if others in the same position see this and it helps in some way.
I was able to see bub but not hold as it had passed a while ago but just seeing how tiny and perfect our angel was helped greatly. The hospital had a Sister from the local church came and that was a great help.
I'm so sorry for your loss. Thinking of you x
So very sorry for your loss x
How are you doing Only? Thinking of you. xxxxx
Feeling very up and down and like the pain will never go away. I am trying to stay busy and move forward.
In my experience of grief the pain doesn't ever go away. It's just the intensity and frequency that drops over time. It's been 18 years since my Dad passed and I can still be suddenly overwhelmed with sadness and find my eyes suddenly welling with tears. I am able to recover far more quickly now though. Allow yourself to feel this when it comes and indulge in the need to fall apart. You need to in order to be able to build yourself back up again.
You're in my thoughts.
Have just found out I have very low Iron levels. So will have to get them under control before my FET. Still waiting on results from tests on Baby and placenta.
Stay strong hun, when I had to go back for the results it was one of the hardest days of my life. They found nothing with my angel and even though it means a green light to ttc again it definitely was very bitter sweet. Its a mad rollercoaster ride in the first few months especially hormonally and it took my body I think around 3 cycles for me to ovulate again and settle down into my normal cycles around 4... but emotionally I will never be the same person again. It doesn't go away 19 months on and I am still getting my head around ttc again. I don't have Bad days regarding it any more I have bad moments where something will remind me of it all and I will have a cry for 5 mins and then be ok and honestly not think about it the rest of the day.Quote:
Originally Posted by onlythelonely
It takes time..be gentle and concentrate on being a healthy mum for now and good luck with your FET...
I just want to say my thoughts and prayers are with you and your family.
I just now read this thread and cannot stop crying for you. This is just so emotional and I am so very sorry. I love all of the kind words and advice from others who have been in your shoes, so nice to have this forum for support.
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I'm so sorry, thoughts & prayers with you xx
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Had my follow up appointment and tests on Bub and placenta showed not abnormalities to bub but the placenta had several blood clots.
Dr said he was not certain that was the caused as there they may have formed after bub had stopped growing.
I have got the all clear to go ahead with transfer when I want to but to add low dose Asprin. Transfer will be in August.
Is there anything I should be doing before hand?
So sorry you didn't get a clear answer. Sometimes, whatever it is, an answer helps us to heal.
The only thing I would suggest to ask about would be clexane.
Wishing you all the very best luck for August.
So sorry for your loss. I'm only reading this now but with bloodclots I would insist on using bloodthinners. I use fraxiparin myself and there are no real side effects other than some bruising in the spot where you inject it, but that's totally worth it if that means you have more chance of a healthy baby. Did you get tested for any blood clot issues?
Yes I had tests which showed that I have some mild clotting issues but my RE was not inclined to use blood thinners only aspirin.
I have spoken to my OB and he is happy for me to be one thinners and aspirin if it will make me feel better, so that is what I plan to do.
I will be having my natural FET in August.
oh no, how heartbreaking :( So sorry you had to go through this. :HH:
My C-section would have been on Monday 2nd June. I am having a hard time of things as the day gets closer. I keep thinking of what I should be doing and getting ready to do, and how I feel like I am starting all over again as I first started down the IVF route 3 yrs ago.
I feel like I have gone through hell the last 3 yrs and have nothing to show for it. I have completed 3 IVF cycles and an FET and I still have nothing.
Sorry about the long rant and I know that there are many others that have been through so much more than me and have been on this journey so much longer, but it just sucks to get so close and then have it all taken away.