Congrats Kelbear!! When are you due?Quote:
Originally Posted by Kelbear
I had spotting in my 1st tri with DS1 and full bleeding in my 2nd tri with DS2 and it was terrifying! No cause found - but yea definitely scary!
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Congrats Kelbear!! When are you due?Quote:
Originally Posted by Kelbear
I had spotting in my 1st tri with DS1 and full bleeding in my 2nd tri with DS2 and it was terrifying! No cause found - but yea definitely scary!
I didn't have any sleepiness with my boys. Who knows - pregnancy is weird! :)Quote:
Originally Posted by Throwaway_panther
And I was sleepy with DD (I even used to nap, which I had trouble doing even when sleep deprived after she was born -- I have never been a napper!)!Quote:
Originally Posted by ABC.2606
Let's hope it means you're having a girl and I'm having a boy, haha ;)
I'm already convinced it's a boy! LOL so we're in the same mindset - both convinced we're having opposites!Quote:
Originally Posted by Throwaway_panther
Thanks ABC and congratulation to you too. My tentative due date is 12 th January. I am not sure how accurate that is as we were not currently ttc, was in the process of trying to talk DH around to the idea of No. 3 when this little surprise came along I think due to a bad bout of gastro, antibiotics and starting antidepressants for PND messing with the effectiveness of my pill. Although a surprise this little Bub will be very very much loved and wanted. Am prepared for boy no.3 as wasn't properly swaying just doing relaxed PCOS Le diet since Jan but with lots of cheats as did a kitchen sink sway last time which resulted in my beautiful sway opposite (whom is adored by us all especially his brother) so was trying not to get so obsessive this time especially as I didn't know whether DH would ever be onboard so wasn't putting my life on hold but regretting that now, especially as I had coffee with milk and sugar every morning and didn't exercise as didn't have much weight spare. If this is another little man he will be very much loved my his big brothers. Torn as to whether to find out gender or go team green. Was obvious with DS 2 from 12 week nub that he was all boy and although we told the tech at our 20 week scan we didn't want to know gender he flashed us anyway and there was no mistaking his boy bits. This sort of ruined my last pregnancy so thinking maybe we will try for team green again and hope Bub is more modestQuote:
Originally Posted by ABC.2606
Congratulations Kel & ABC! So glad to have a couple more ladies in here!
Thank you all for your help with my speed bump. I decided that since we will see each other weekly, to tell her via text first. I wrestled with the personal part of this, but I wanted her to process the news on her own in a safe space. I’m praying that this news doesn’t devastate her. It also is happening at a time when we are all super supportive of her current situation. I don’t ever want to steal away from her journey.
Kel, I think we may be team green. One girl and 3 boys, I think I may really want to enjoy this last pregnancy. And also I feel like it gives an element of surprise that is just not there with baby #5! We’ll see if my willpower can wait.
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My 11 dpo line ladies. I'm getting excited!! With my 3 miscarriages the lines weren't nearly so dark this early. I'm hoping that in my case this is a good sign!! I also did a CB digital yesterday and it said pregnant! I'm going for my first beta on Tuesday.
Only thing is I already feel strongly that it's a boy so that's making me anxious...
Kelbear sounds like with the sickness and light sway diet you do have some pink factors going on so fx you get your girl! I don't know if we'll find out or not - probably will but I feel torn.
Hannah I hope telling your friend goes well! I'm sure it will be hard but I know she'll be grateful about how sensitive you are trying to be about it!
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That line is BEAUTIFUL at 11DPO ABC! I swear I feel like this is your girl, and I honestly usually have a good read on other people's pregnancies :P
And thank you for asking about me! I actually found myself incredibly anxious today. People in my loss groups who had similar EDDs have all been having bad news scans or finding out baby stopped growing around 8 weeks (where I am now) despite HB... so I've been so scared. Plus I rescheduled DH's urology appointment and worried I jinxed us by doing that? Which I know is irrational! One more week until next scan -- and it will be a looong week.
I did actually have the slightest touches of nausea today. Hoping I'm not self deluding with it! Anytime I felt my breasts hurt today I literally said, "Thank you god" lol! Plus weird sex dream last night... a classic symptom for me, haha. And peeing at least once a night!
It's definitely amazing to me how much i don't care about gender in these moments. I am still so, so desperate for my son... but I would do anything for this baby to make it, regardless of gender. Maybe there's a cosmic reason for this anxiety lol... distracts me from the GD!
Thanks TP - I hope you are right about it being a girl!! I'm just so in awe of my FRERs right now. I'm thinking within the next day or two the test line will be as dark as the control (yes, I have a POAS addiction!). Really hoping my numbers are good next week.
Oh that's awful (the losses on your loss boards). So sad. I don't understand why some women have to go through that multiple times. And especially after a heartbeat is found too :( My DH was really glad with our last loss that we didn't see a heartbeat before we lost it - he feels like that would have made it much worse and he's probably right. But he's still traumatized from those two ultrasounds we had - he's already said that if we make it to a first ultrasound this time he doesn't want to go because he's worried there wont be heartbeat again. He'll go, and I know he wants to, he's just scared like I am after what happened last time. Ugh - so hard to feel calm and secure in pregnancy after going through loss :( :( I really wish it didn't have to be that way!
Ooooh come on nausea!!!!! And LOL I poke my nipples multiple times a day to see if they are sore (which they are only very slightly at this point). Yea it's crazy the alternating feelings between gender anxiety and anxiety over baby being ok. I feel it too!!
That is an amazing line for 11dpo ABC, hoping your bloods come back good, feeling positive for you with that line! Hoping you can get through til you first scan without too much anxiety but it is completely understandable given your previous losses. I have always felt very anxious going into scans as so worried I won't see a heart beat. Nothing seems to help get over that fear. Hoping everyone else (hannah, tp) is doing ok and bring on scans with healthy growing beans with strong heartbeats.
I completely understand the anxiety of gender desire mixed with just wanting Bub to be healthy. I just want this Bub to keep growing and be healthy but that doesn't stop the anxiety over this Bub being another boy and never having my little girl as this is definitely our last baby - DH is likely to book in to get the snip before Bub even born just to make sure!
I totally understand. There's a good chance this is our last too, as there's no way I'd go through all of this again for a third :/ And I definitely still get anxious when I think about this being a girl -- I just think until at least 14 weeks or so, I'm just still anxious about this baby making it! I wish this whole process could be easier. It's hard to be a loss mom -- but boy is it hard to be a loss mom with GD!Quote:
Originally Posted by Kelbear
I feel you both on the scans, too. I both dread and need it -- so scared for bad news yet so desperate for good news. ABC, I understand your DH's feelings, but I also hope he thinks of you and the support you need :(
Abc I feel this is your girl too! [emoji4]ahh I’m
So excited for you! I prayed baby girl for you!! Eek so excited for all of you in here! So excited for yours and TP’s rainbow babies!!! I’m so excited to watch both of your journeys!!
I had so much anxiety with my ultrasounds too. I had only ever had two transvaginal ultrasounds and they were not good experiences for me, not until Emmalyn!! [emoji4] The lord finally answered my prayers for her and I know he’s doing the same for you!!
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Thanks Mommy :) I'm so grateful for all your prayers and support over these many months. Thank you for praying!! Even my DS1 has started praying lately for a "girl baby" (he's only 5!). We haven't pushed or encouraged that - he just really wants a sister! So I really hope this one sticks, and that it's my girl! As you know from my PMs after the last loss I didn't even know if we'd try again - I was so heartbroken. So praying and hoping we don't have to go through that again.Quote:
Originally Posted by Mommy2apples
I pray for you and a couple other mommas that you conceive your healthy baby girls! You know what there’s nothing more special and powerful then the prayers of a child! I just love that! My 9 year old and 5 year old prayed and hopes for their baby sister also! I know it’s heartbroken! When we went to the ultrasound my 5 year old said this is a good day! Because he got his baby sister he wanted!I believe this is finally your answered prayer!!Quote:
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It's sooooo sweet when they pray for baby siblings, isn't it? My DS1 loved his little brother from the moment we brought him home - I know he would love having another sibling! DS2 may take longer to adjust to the idea LOL!!
Guys, my test line is now the same as the control at 12 dpo. This is starting to freak me out! Obviously there's the possibility of twins (which is even more possible as I was told I'd ovulate 2 eggs). But then my mind goes to what if it's a chromosome problem causing the high hcg or something like a molar pregnancy. Ugggghh why I don't care about these stupid tests so much?!
TP how far were you when you had your first scan? It was earlier than 6 weeks, right? Mommy you had an early one too yea? I think I want to ask for the earliest scan that they will give me!!
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A dark line is GOOD! Don't fret!!! Honestly I think it's because of that little bit of science saying girls tends to have more HCG early! I wouldn't be jumping to a molar pregnancy, especially because those are sooo rare! I think you should push for an early scan just for your wellbeing! My first one was 5w5d and I'm so glad I went in when I did! In fact, I felt better after my 5w5d one than my 6w6d one lol (I think because I was so scared of the 6-8 week period from my previous losses).Quote:
Originally Posted by ABC.2606
And I hear you all on our kids and siblings. Anytime I remotely waver on this pregnancy because of my fears of another girl, I think of my DD's almost pathologica obsession with babies and remember I need to do this for her -- she needs a sibling. I hope your sons get their baby sisters!
It is sweet, when they are so involved!Quote:
Originally Posted by ABC.2606
I feel everything is great with you and baby.
I had my first scan at and was only measuring 5 weeks 6 days should’ve been 6 weeks 2 days, they only seen a sac the first time. I was scared. They had me come back the following week and there was this sweet little blob measuring only 2 days behind from where I should’ve been and her little heartbeat fluttering away and was the most beautiful sight and a shed a couple of tears. Things were finally looking up:
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When do you get to find out what baby is tp?? Prayers this is your sweet little guy!!Quote:
Originally Posted by Throwaway_panther
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Thanks for the reassurance ladies! :) DH just looked at the test and goes "Yea the test line is actually darker than the control". :worry: I know I shouldn't let my mind go to something like a molar as those are so rare but it's hard after the past year to think things are actually going right!! Funny thing is with my 3 m/c's I was so stressed out that my tests were not darkening enough or fast enough (and with the 1st and 2nd m/cs, that really was a bad sign as my hormones weren't doing what they should), and now that it's darkening SO fast I'm freaking out just the same LOL!!! I'm trying to remind myself that b/c I got a BFP at 8 dpo, the bean must have implanted very early and thus that's likely why it's so dark already.
I will ask them on Tuesday when I go in for blood work when I can do the first scan and will tell them that I'm anxious and would like to do one as soon as I can. Unfortunately I will only be 4 weeks on Tuesday so even if I had one at 5 1/2 weeks that feels like a long time away!
TP - I sooooooooo hope this is your boy (and still think you have a great shot at it being so!) but you are right that no matter what if you're DD is wanting a baby this much then she will LOVE having a sibling - boy or girl!! As bad as I have had GD over the last couple of years (and I had a lot of it with DS2), it really has been the coolest thing watching my boys together. I honestly feel like DS1 was so meant to have a little brother and I feel like they really will be lifelong buddies. They are very different, and they fight all the time now (almost always over toys!), but they are just so, so cute together. IF your baby is girl I know your DD will love having a sister and it will be really fun to watch them together (and they'll fight too LOL!).
BUT doesn't matter because you're going to have a boy!!! :)
Thank you!!Quote:
Originally Posted by Mommy2apples
I'm pretty sure we're going Team Green! I feel it's mostly a girl and will just convince myself of that for the next 32 weeks and maybe (probably not!) will be pleasantly surprised at delivery haha. I just don't want it confirmed girl and to deal with the depression I did with DD :(
I'm hoping this is a case where everyone else around me is right, haha -- one of my bffs is convinced it's a boy, and DH thinks so too (and guessed DD was a girl at BFP correctly). But yes, as much as I want a boy, I don't want DD to grow up alone, and it was getting scary looking like that might happen with all our losses!Quote:
Originally Posted by ABC.2606
And I want you to know: i UNDERSTAND why your mind went there with the tests. Within 24 hours of my great beta at 15DPO, I had convinced myself it wasn't good enough and things were going to go south. You and I seriously sound so similar in how our anxieties work lol
I understand that tp! I didn’t know how pbn did it, but she really was pleasantly surprised once Mara was here!!
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Oh yea pregnancy anxiety has really become my worst enemy!!! It sucks!!!!Quote:
Originally Posted by Throwaway_panther
Yay!!! I think we’re going team green!!! My husband and I talked about it and think it will be a blast to not tell anyone what we have until a “come & see party!” With this being number 5, I’m thinking this will add that fun level of suspense for friends and family. And I’ve always wanted a beautiful cream & white neutral nursery [emoji23][emoji23][emoji23]
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Lol mommy2apples! I found it really easy once I made the solid decision to stay team green after the 12w scan. Didn't even feel tempted for the rest of the pregnancy and was able to really enjoy that last bub growing over 9 months. Made d-day so exciting not just for us but family too!Quote:
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Abc I posted in the 2ww thread but again thinking of you as you approach your betas draw and have only positive thoughts [emoji173]
Hannah that sounds like a lot of fun! I'd totally do it!
Tp I'm hoping and sending so many blue dust thoughts your way [emoji170] how long until nipt blood draw?
This helps me feel better to hear too -- I have felt an immense lift of anxiety by deciding to go Team green and just... produce another living baby. Anytime I stress, I focus on the things to trick myself into keeping his pregnancy no matter what lol: 1. DD is obsessed with babies. Absolutely obsessed. She needs this baby. 2. This is the absolute tail end of the age gap range I wanted with DD. 3. This is my last possible baby in my 20s!Quote:
Originally Posted by Pbn3
NIPT could be in a week and a half or so since I'm almost 9 weeks. Midwives said they would try and bill it for RPL and hopefully it would get covered -- i think they use Materniti 21. I'm just hoping my 9w1d scan this Friday goes well. I have been so anxious the last few days about this pregnancy.
Will be eagerly awaiting your update Friday TP! Strange how the first trimester crawls and takes forever yet after that, in the blink of an eye, you're at 38 weeks [emoji849]
Well my pregnancy tests have not darkened much the past couple of days so I'm convinced something is wrong again. I know - it's stupid and paranoid. I do really hate that I worry so much - especially over lines on a freaking pregnancy test!
TP - Interesting, do you know if insurance companies will cover NIPT because of RPL? I've been thinking that I'd like to do it to at least know that baby is healthy (whether I would want to find out gender from it or not, I don't know). I haven't looked into it much or checked my insurance yet. I was thinking my doc might recommend it anyways given this past year of miscarriages and that I'll be 35 by time baby would be born.
But I shouldn't even be thinking that far ahead yet as I'm too worried about everything being ok right now!!!
Sounds like there may be a lot of Team Greens on this board!!! Fun!!!
Ahhhh stop testing!! Those lines can only get so dark :PQuote:
Originally Posted by ABC.2606
Our office wasn't sure and gave me the code to call insurance to see since in their experience it cam get covered "for 35 or those otherwise at risk," which they and me arguably thought would be RPL. I just haven't called insurance yet because I wanted to get to this week's scan. Every step of this pregnancy makes me feel like I'm jinxing it! DH has started telling DD to be "careful around your little brother or sister" and talked about cribs and I wanted to scream! I'm so scared to think past anything until we're at least at 12 weeks, you know? Which is a real flip from previous pregnancies where I'd talk names or plans and DH would tell me not to get attached. Maybe my intuition really is shoddy...
TP, I completely understand the “jinx” feeling. I’m trying to let go of those so I will just enjoy it. On a positive note, Carter’s just came out with a fantastic gender neutral layette line. I was there and just couldn’t help but look! Hopefully by having some awesome baby clothes available that aren’t yellow, I’ll be able to stay on the Team Green track. First scan is scheduled for June 11 and I’m nervous. So very nervous.
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TP have you thought about getting an at home fetal doppler? I have one and have found baby's heartbeat at 9w1d! It's such a relief to be able to hear baby's heart beating everytime I have a freak out moment (so once a day at the moment [emoji6]).
ABC I had the same with my tests! I think they were just saturated. If you remember I had an u/s at 5 weeks exactly showing the sac and from that point I at least didn't feel the need to test anymore at least. Maybe an early scan is an option?
I'm crossing my fingers for all of you ladies! [emoji173]️
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Verena, I did the at home Doppler with my last pregnancy. I would have a bad day and just go lay down and listen. It was such a nice break. And it eased my mind every time. They’re very affordable and I’ve had friends find the heartbeat around 8w although ALL of them told me to NoT freak out if I didn’t find it. Just be patient, try for about 10 min then take a breath and try again the next day. So...with that knowledge, I got mine around 10 weeks and found it within 10 sec after watching a YouTube video for how to look at that gestation. [emoji6]
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Exactly Hannah! And it makes me feel so much more connected to my baby and makes me realize that there's really a little human being in my belly. I cried tears of joy with each of my kids when I found their hartbeats for the first time [emoji4]
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Thanks Verena! I do remember your super early scan and how good things looked! I knew this would be your sticky bean!!Quote:
Originally Posted by Verena
Should get my first beta number I a few hours... ahhh!!!
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Originally Posted by Verena
I thought home dopplars were better in the second tri? Wow, if you're all getting HBs that early on them that makes me excited! But I think they'd be such a bad idea for me, especially if I freaked and couldn't find it! I'm already so obsessive lol...Quote:
Originally Posted by Verena
And excited for your beta ABC!
I still use one daily. It's the way I found out with my last baby that she passed and it's the way I use in this pregnancy to help reassure me that she's Alive. Helps reassure me. I found HB at 9 weeks.Sent from my SM-G950W using TapatalkQuote:
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Do you guys have any recommendations on which one to use? If you guys found HB at 9 weeks, I could be (hopefully) hearing one at home in 2 days!
TP I couldn’t find Emmalyn’s until 12 weeks, but it’s so worth it and reassuring until they begin moving so you can feel them.
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I have sonoline b TP.
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