Originally Posted by
Raezodal
I'm sorry you didn't hear girl, pinklady.
I feel such a jumble of emotions. I am certain this is another boy and I want to cry. I know I will love him and he will be an amazing addition to our family but I so wanted to have a girl. And I feel stupid about it because it isn't just a girl but my whole image in my head of what she would be like...which is craziness.
We told our boys last weekend that there was going to be another baby in January. My ds1 immediately jumped to the conclusion that it would be a boy (how could it not be!?) But then he said to my ds4: "In January, you might be a big brother!" And I said, no...he is a boy...he will be a big brother. "Well the baby could die." My ds1 replied. And I've been doubting myself so much since then. The boys are happy being the 4 of them, what are we doing? Even though I know the likelihood is boy #5, I can't stop wishing and hoping a miracle will happen and we will have a girl. I feel like we made a mistake. Like I made a mistake because dh was content with 4 and I convinced him we should try one last time.
I likely won't know until September, if I get the guts to find out, because the ultrasound techs aren't allowed to say anything here. I will have to wait till my next appt. So it is silly to be stressing about this all. Sigh.
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