Originally Posted by
Sora
Woke up with cramps this morning. Still no blood in sight but considering the date, that's not good.
If we failed this time again, I will be disappointed really. How come other girls succeeded in their first month TTC and I can't, even though I'm doing the exact same things they did ? Am I too fat to be fertile or what ?
Also, what, so when I don't want to be preg, some lost sperm still finds the egg no matter what, even though I'm tired, in the middle of moving places, stressed out, hungry and sick... But when I'm doing okay, as happy as can be, safe and taking lots of stuff I don't usually take to up my fertility, it's a big NO ? Is it some kind of cosmic joke ? God's sick sense of humor ? Is it so funny for Him to throw my life in disarray and make me miserable ?
Sorry, I'm ranting a bit while not knowing if it's AF (although I sense it is, I don't think these cramps are about pregnancy). But I'm so over failures. Especially when everyone around me gets boys or whatever else they want with their eyes closed. So so tired.