So I m not sure if I should be on here yet as honestly I am not sure if I even ovulated!!
I had a super early af (thought it was implantation spotting til it really got going) so I didn't know when to expect ovulation because it was a sort cycle! I remember around cd 8-9ish I had some cramping and what was like ewcm but I just ignored it basically because I wasn't expecting ov! However I am now cd 18 and still nothing! I keep feeling like its going to happen but never quite does! I used th opk's the last few days and got a faint line but no +!
I haven't bought the expensive store bought ones because I thought since I was bd'ing everyday did it really matter?!
I just relaxed this time, I think I just started to wonder why I was even doing this?! Well maybe because it's all I have thought of for over 1.5 years!!! But my close friends "accidentally" got preggers and she is soooo I'll! It has brought back all the reasons that made me wait this long to come to the conclusion to give this girl a try!
She has frightened the crapola out of me!
So I guess what I am getting at is I don't know whether I am excited or completely petrified of whether this will happen!!
I am telling myself I am ok if this doesn't happen. I tried hard for 2 months and if it works fine. If it doesn't I am ok with that too... I might be lying to myself but I will go away from this site for a while if it's a negative... Because it has consumed me! I'll really look at everything again and reassess! If I am still thinking about it I will return...but I kinda hope I am pregnant so I can close this chapter of my life! Sorry! Should have started a thread instead of writing a novel on th 2 ww thread!!