September 2013 babies!!

Fish and Northern...there are no words, I am thinking of you both every minute. HUGS.

My mom will be here in 11 days, so that should really help out a lot!

Northern just read your blog I'm sure she was so perfect and always will be all she's ever known is her parents love that's a lovely if sadly short life. So sad you could only love her for such a short time thinking of you hope physically things went okay xx

omg i need to vent as im a little hysterical right now and just made myself look like the craziest lunatic in the world...

i was sitting eating at the table and ds3 was watching dora in the living room... someone knocked on the door it was for ds1 so he answered the door and a few mins later i notice ds3 is not in the living room and i can see hw the light is shinning in the hallway that the front door is wide open i run out side and ds1 is on the driveway with a friend and ds3 no where to be seen at first glance... i start literally screaming at ds1 at the top of my lungs where is my baby!!! he ended up being in the backyard safe playing with a ball but thats not the point! he is a wanderer and does not have understanding of danger he is autistc and always wants to play on the busy road across the street so i died inside i couldnt breath or think... i still cant stop crying...

i grounded ds1 and lost my damn mind screamed like ive never screamed beforei told him i dont want to see him til tomorrow... there is no excuse he is 9 there is a rule that the door in this house is alway closed!! he is carless non stop and this just sent me over the edge my baby could have been killed...

Oh wag poor you! How scary that must have been terrifying for you, and your poor ds1 I bet he won't make that mistake again!

Have a cuppa and a cuddle with your lill ones xx

Thanks fish... It's def one of those days where I wish I could have a smoke :s yuk!

Is grounding him to his room for the rest of the night too muc?... I can't bare the thought to even see him at this point...god I must sound like a terrible mother ur it's the truth...

I dunno my oldest is 3 but I reckon the grounding might do it, you were probably too freaked to notice but he was probably terrified until you found ds3 too!

I know what you mean thou ds1 pushed ds2 off my bed this afternoon and I just saw red - will they ever stop being our babies ;-)

I hate punishing him... I like to try and be laid back with him... But lately I'm having so many problems with him... He's being so disrespectful.... Attitude like you wouldn't believe... Not following simple rules and he's doing bad in school... I'm at a loss of what to do with him In general... I'm getting really frusterated

Northern, I also read your blog today. I don't know if you're even checking back here but I wanted you to know your sweet little Evelyn is beautiful. As Fish said, she knew nothing but love in her short time on earth. She is at peace now and heaven is lucky to have such a precious little angel.

She's very beautiful! Hope you are doing okay northern