LOL, Lola, get a life. You are only 10dpo and you know better than that. He he he! I don't have sore boobs really at all anymore. I have had no sore boobs w/ this pregnancy at all yet so don't worry about that. I did have that feeling like you were fighting off a cold feeling and I was emotional. Do you know the percentage of one time shot working on the clomid? Don't you give up quite yet.
I have read through everyone's posts while I've been gone and they were cracking me up.
3PNB, the little waving hand brought tears up and I like the thoughts that he's saying I'm OK here mommy, don't worry. I'm sure this entire pregnancy will be very emotional and I would expect you to be all over the place. I didn't enjoy my last pregnancy so try to take some time to sit and feel and enjoy.
The home water birth was amazing. I am still an advocate, just be prepared especially w/ a unassisted that you are ready to deal with the outcome if something terrible was to happen and you understand what distress and other things really look like so you are prepared to go to the hospital right away. I think home birth is amazing but birth can be dangerous at home and in the hospital both. I don't want to be a downer though, I loved it.
I went to SoCal to see my sisters before 1 of their kids goes to school on Monday. I didn't have a great time though and I knew I shouldn't have gone. I was way too tired and emotional to be there. I told my 1 sister who is getting crazy into Old Testament law and she talks to me about it constantly. I hate it. No Christmas, Easter, birthday's they are eating Kosher, no birth or marriage certificates or ssn's or anything that's normal really. I find it frustrating in the fact that they are pulling further away from family and people. I told her that I would no longer talk to her about it. She is pregnant and was very upset since we talk about everything. I told her that she needed to get used to it. It's just like homeschool, home birth, hollistic meds, you stop talking to people about it unless they are open and intested. If not, the treat you like you are a fool.
My other sister has such out of control parenting issues that I just get very frustrated w/ her selfish child-centered parenting that is detrimental to her kids. Her "most perfect, beautiful, awesome" son didn't want to go to the dentist and would get upset so in 4 years he's never had to go. He refuses to eat all but a few things and very particularly at that and now has 1 tooth disintegrating and the top front 4 have to be capped. He will need to go under anesthesia now since she let him make the rules. I told her she needed to go to a pediatric dentist and let them know. If they can deal w/ children with autism and such they can deal w/ her over the top momma's boy. there are just so many things that she's unwilling to see that she is causing harm to her children. She is so hard on her girls but her precious son, you'd think he walked on water. I just don't get it. This is why I shouldn't have gone.
I picked a fight w/ DH last night and slept w/ my son pissed about something he can't even do anything about, just mad at being stuck in certain places in life. I got so frustrated w/ DD1 that I was boiling inside the day I left for SoCal. I called my sister while I was driving to vent and was all kinds of worked up. My eyes had been blurry all morning and then I started having trouble coming up w/ the words I was trying to say. I think I had too much blood working from being upset. I am just the most crazy, hormal pregnant person ever. I'm shocked my DH has let me have 5. I'm insane and I don't even like myself.
I have so much to do to get ready for the school year on Monday and the house is soooo horrible I can't even tell you. Why can't I just have a normal life where I'm at home w/ my kids in my own house and not living in my hoarding mother's (parents) upstairs. I can't have a normal family life and now i have to work 3 days for the fall instead of 2. Now 3 days of my week is spent at someone else's house. I really should go, I'm not in a good place and need to start being thankful. I think I'll take the kids to the park for a break.
Oh yes, and I told both of my sisters I was pregnant. #1 I needed them to know why I was being such a b*#$@ and #2 one of my sisters was already on to me since I said and did the same things to hide my last pregnancy. When I told her I wasn't having starbucks she was on to me. I told DH there was no point in hiding it and it wouldn't be a surprise anyway. The friend I work for is on to me too since I've had Dr. appts. Not as much fun but I don't feel like telling everyone yet.
