Originally Posted by
jennaesue
Thanks for all the congrats, ladies! I can honestly say I'm really not sad. I'm feeling a little bit wistful about what might have been, and if I start thinking too much about how I would feel if we found out it was a girl, it starts to make me sad. I am feeling mostly fortunate that baby is healthy. I have a very close friend who had a baby with anencephaly last summer, and her experience really changed my perspective. I was so glad to see a nice, round head on the ultrasound screen! Also, I guess this probably sounds crazy, but I have a lot of practice with gender disappointment, and I realize now that I will love this new little guy no matter what. I went out today with my mom and bought him some cute little summer outfits and jammies. It was difficult to be around the girl clothes, but I did my best to avoid them. And we have also pretty much settled on a name (Charlie), so that helps for me to bond with him. The hardest part of today (besides the big moment when we found out) was telling my ds2. He's almost 6, and was really hoping for a girl. When I told him it was a boy, he started crying and said "no, I want a girl! We only have one girl!" (meaning me, lol) I almost starting crying then. But I told him we don't get to pick. If we did get to pick, I would have picked a girl. I told him boys are very special. He came around, and said "we need some baby clothes for him!" so I showed him the clothes we bought today and he got all excited and said "I want him to come now!" He is so darn cute. See, boys ARE special! :)