Hey coocoo...it is so hard for sure. The NT scan really prepared me, and I told the tech to just show the boy money shot b/c I knew it was there. Sure enough, there it popped up. I was not surprised at all. It just hurts to know I can't buy pink and look forward to all those girly things...but it is what it is. Don't worry...you will be OK. My gd with DS2 was terrible and I got over it quick enough. Don't put a time limit on yourself and just let it take you where you need to.
Blame DH...that feels much better!