Moving this to the back of the thread
Update - I have heard of some pretty ugly gossip going around that sadly I feel that I must address it. I don't think anyone really believes it, but since it's out there, I guess I have to waste time on it.
1)My children were ALWAYS well fed and cared for. I NEVER bought alcohol or anything for swaying at the expense of food, paying my bills, and caring for my children. My 20 year old son was so furious about this allegation that he was going to film a video about it and post it on YouTube LOL.
2)There is a HUGE difference between saying "We have nothing to eat, guess it's spaghetti night again", having to wait a few days till the next paycheck to go grocery shopping and living off what you have in your cupboards because you are out of money, even feeling a little stressed out and tense about it, and seriously having NOTHING to eat, children going hungry, etc. I thought that was obvious, but apparently some people are twisting my words into me starving my children while my husband and I bought booze. If my children were EVER in any danger of suffering in any way, I would move heaven and earth for them, up to and including food stamps, food banks, having help from my parents, begging in the streets if I had to, and getting my butt off the Internet and getting a real job. My husband may have a prickly personality and was going through a rough patch at the time, but he would NEVER do anything to harm his children or cause them to suffer in any way.
3)"Drinking more than I should have been" for me entails about 2 light beers and on a couple of times 3-4. My husband did drink more, 4-6 beers and a couple times more, but he also weighs 250 lbs. So any suggestion that we were drunk all the time and not caring for our children, is complete nonsense.
4) I've heard there is a rumor possibly being spread that a miscarriage (really more a chemical) that I had earlier in 2011 was caused by the LE Diet, my drinking, vitex, and not prenatal vitamins. Implication being that I was keeping this information from people deceptively trying to misrepresent the risks of my recommendations for swaying. And also that the miscarriage was swaying for me and I kept that from people to make my diet look more effective. That loss happened a full 6 months before I got pg with my DD, long before things got very stressful and hectic for us. I was not swaying at that point, I was eating normally (I had just been on vacation actually and eating like a pig who loved red meat) taking prenatal vitamins, DHA, high dose folic acid, was not drinking. It had NOTHING to do with swaying and I have invested many hours of time and energy into making swaying as safe as I possibly can.
My chemical took place after a very stressful couple days where I had had very little sleep and significantly more caffeine than I normally do. I was not ovulating and it was the first egg I released while BF, so I didn't have any clue I was pg until I had the loss. I was also 41 years old and people have chemical pregnancies at 41 quite frequently. I did not choose to tell family about that and so I did not care to share all about it publicly because you never know who will be reading it, and quite frankly because it was a personal thing to me and I just didn't feel like mentioning it in my sway right when I was excited about getting a DD, because it had NOTHING to do with my sway. I have mentioned it at other points on the board and it was NEVER a secret in any way.
5)When you put yourself on the line publicly like I have, people are going to come out of the woodwork to try and bring you down. I accept that. This is not a surprise to me in any way. I am a pretty upfront and direct by my nature and I like keeping it real because I know that being a mom is hard, none of us are perfect, and that there are tons of people out there struggling through hard times. Maybe it helps them in some way to think, well, you know atomic went through some hard times, she made mistakes, she's not perfect, but her kids are ok and my family will be ok too. I'm not going to change that about myself or censor myself in any way.
