Originally Posted by
LolaInLove
Hey everyone...3PNB, you ain't out yet, sorry it's taking so long! My appt yesterday was DEPRESSING to say the least. My uterus has a slim smooth lining at least and everything is out, so I don't need any d&c action. I stopped bleeding officially last night, because my pad was clear this morning, so I am done. My midwife was very realistic with me, which I love about her, but it also kinda sucked, because the tired-of-this part of me wanted her to say, "Oh, it was just bad luck to have 2 m/c in a row, just wait a month and jump on it again!" Instead, she says, "Well, I am sending you to the lab for some testing. You may have a clotting disorder, and you may have something that is preventing you and this particular man from creating life, something in your body is attacking and making the embryos not grow." Also, she is making Dh have a semen analysis, which my old doctor said we could do if we wanted. She wants them to check him out, just to be sure. So, she hands me the scrips for our lab work and on them in big letters it says PATIENT: Dx RECURRENT MISCARRIAGE. I just hated that. I am officially a recurrent miscarriage woman. She wants us to wait 3 months, and says if we go ahead and try before that, don't be surprised if we have another m/c because my body really needs time to heal and my lining to get back to normal. So, I'm just BLAH, ARG, MEH right now. I guess we'll be ttc again in August, which makes me even more depressed, because our first month ttc was LAST AUGUST. So, it will officially be a whole year of my life that I have been totally insane and spent more than 50% of my consciousness focused on ttc.
On a good note, I am starting to eat more, but I just feel awful about myself right now....I feel broken and fat and just bad. I think I am going to take this month off from the diet and lose some weight. I am definitely going through a depressive phase right now, because I don't want food and cry a lot, and I want to drink wine every night. So, hopefully this break will do me some good anyway.
Despite all that, still cheering all of you ladies on, lots of luck to the 2wwers now!!!!