I am so very sorry! I wish they would allow surrogacy here in my state, as I'd be a surrogate if I were allowed. I think you should try that and research it. It could be amazing and I'm sure that the wait would be worthwhile, now. I think that would be an excellent choice for you. I think that some women are surrogates not simply for money, but because it is a joyous gift to help another woman become a mother. If you are able to choose the woman to do this, be sure to ask her why she chooses to be a surrogate. The way she answers you will be a great way to know if she's the right one.