Originally Posted by
jenc8060
Thought I would update here instead of the Aug board...
My midwife called earlier with the results of my second HCG blood draw and it went down from a 90 on Monday to a 72 on Thursday morning :-(
I had a feeling this was going to happen but I was still absolutely devastated when she told me.
I had a tiny amount of blood last night after using the bathroom but it stopped before I went to bed. Took more pregnancy tests this morning prior to the blood test and it was still positive, but a little lighter than yesterday. Aside from that though, no cramping or any other miscarriage signs so now I play the waiting game. She said it could take up to a week for the bleeding to begin. I have the option of taking some meds to help push it along, but she recommended to let it happen naturally if at all possible. A part of me agrees with that but another part of me just wants this over and done with!!
Now having had back to back miscarriages, I am kind of at a loss at what to do. This was our third month TTC and third month on Clomid (for swaying purposes only). Since I initially thought this was going to be a sticky PG I stopped exercising, started eating breakfast, added meat back in, nuts, etc basically everything the opposite of what I'd been doing since January. The thought of going back to LE and the daily exercise seems unbearable right now.
My midwife said back to back miscarriages are't common, esp since we conceived DS first month TTC and so she recommended I see an OBGYN or reproductive endocrinologist to get things checked out. I was somehow able to get an appt with a RE in 5 days so will be interesting to see what she says. I think I will probably have to come clean about taking Clomid medically unsupervised for 3 cycles which I am sure I will be read the riot act for :nails:
My DH just thinks these back to back miscarriage are purely coincidental and that we should just try again without intervention. The thought of trying again without having things looked at scares me. A part of me believes that these two miscarriages are somehow the result of me taking Clomid and it maybe impacting my lining but I just don't know. Maybe we got lucky when we conceived DS during first cycle? The other part of me thinks we should try again without the Clomid but if there truly is something going on, such as a blood clotting disorder or a lining issue I'd really prefer not to risk another potentially preventable miscarriage. And of course I feel like I've screwed up my chances of a girl in Sept since I've been eating and living a boy-friendly lifestyle the last two weeks. I really felt like I had my girl this month and I am so sad that my body couldn't sustain her :-(
Anyway, sorry for the long story but thanks for letting me vent. TTC #2 has felt like such a nightmare and absolutely nothing like I expected it to be.