Great news :)
Hopefully rest of the pregnancy will be stress free for you, you've done your quota already!
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I am so scared about my scan tomorrow and getting really worried. This is just freaking me out so much - probably because its so damn final and I just feel like after everything I've been through I should get a girl; but the reality is when I think about my daughter it doesn't seem real, it seems so far away like a dream I can't even dream and just makes me really feel like it will never come true.
Last night I was sitting on the couch with my dh and said to him "aren't you scared for the u/s on Tuesday? Aren't you scared to see a penis?"
He relied "No, I'm not scared to see a penis, I'm scared for you to see a penis. I just want a healthy baby." I didn't say anything.
I know he's right, and I know he won't be disappointed- and I kept telling myself that healthy is all that matters in the end and gender is not the most important.
So then we went to bed and I could NOT sleep. I kept thinking of my scan tomorrow and dozing off but waking up every hour on the hour. Towrds the early morning I had a dream. I was at my scan and the doc was explaining the direction on the nub meant ... and then said "and you have a little boy in there". I literally woke up before I could react with the worst pain in my heart. It felt so real. And now I can't help but think that its totally a boy cause i dreamt it. I know it was in my head and its my biggest fear and that's probably what happened but now I just completely feel defeated. Like I just know its another boy.
I asked myself this morning if I really want to know tomorrow? And I think I have to. Why go on longer with this hope that I could have a girl when I'm not. If I'm not having a daughter I just need to deal with it. Not sure how I'm going to do that - but what choice do I have?
Good luck today Gpkm!!
Aidansmum - that's great news!! :)
I have a SIL (BIL's wife) that is like this. When she found out I was pregnant with my second, she stopped by and gave me pink booties. That sounds like a sweet gesture, but knowing her it was more like trying to jinx me. She had 2 girls and really wanted a boy. She didn't want us to get a boy and girl. She eventually got her boy but I still don't really even want her to find out...feel like she'll secretly hope we get all boys. She's always been jealous of us, but not willing to do what we've had to do to get what we have. Just one of those fake people, always saying "sweetie" and "hun" but I've just seen her true side one too many times. It's crazy that the people that are supposed to be closest to you and wish you the best are sometimes the ones that are the most jealous and worst intentions :( Hope you get to hear girl PrayforPrincess!
I also agree with the crazy dreams! Even if I can manage and distract myself somewhat during the day...my dreams almost haunt me and I can barely rest. So much about finding out what it is...boy or girl...I've had more boy dreams and only once one about it being a girl, but then shortly after someone told me it really was a boy. I really didn't want to be so worked up about gender...but then I have those crazy dreams and can't help but think about it all day.
Spicy - that's great you are hoping for a boy! Good to see! Boys are great. If I had two girls I would be desperate for a boy. Actually, with my first I really wanted a boy, though at that time it wouldn't have been as big of a deal to me if it wasn't - good luck!
Great news Aidansmum and good luck on your scan today Gpkm!!!
Thanks, scan went well. Baby all looks well, waving their arms around. Attachment 16896
Not a great picture, still no clue if it's a boy or girl
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Don't think you can see anything more on this one
Oh my GPKM - that is a hard pic. Glad your scan went well. I think you can see more in the 1st pic. You can see the nub I believe -- its blurry but there.
I think this totally looks like it could be a girl!!! If what I think I'm looking at is the nub - its pointing straight out, just can't see the end of it well.
You are definitely still in the game here! Nothing is pointing up so thats a VERY good sign!
Gpkm, it's pretty blurry, but if what I can see is a nub, it's looking good! Fx
PFP, the dream is just your mind facing your fears so you can prepare for the worst, BUT, it's just a dream, you still have every chance! I'll be anxiously waiting for your result. I'm glad your Dh's heart is in the right place too, that helps.
Can you guys assuage my nerves!? There are about 75% confirmed blue for the ttc blue boards. This is great, but makes me nervous because someone has to be in the 25% and get pink! I am feel like just to even out the birth rate in 2014, I will get another pink. Talk me out of this silliness.