Hi all! Just checking in. I FINALLY had my first midwife appointment on Monday. It went great! She easily found the HB with the Doppler (I have one at home and luckily had already been hearing it for a week, so I wasn't too worried) AND I had my blood drawn for the Harmony test. I was 10w on the dot but she said since I'm a fairly small person there should be plenty of DNA to work with. Now I'm just worried about false results! I know it's super rare but it's not unheard of.
Of course, I'm trying to tell myself this is another boy. And honestly, I think I will have a better reaction than I did the first time around, when I was devastated - because now I see how having a boy was the best thing that ever happened to me and he is my whole life and I had NOTHING to worry about. I'm sure the next one will be the same. But I still find myself imagining it as a girl in my head. (I don't FEEL like it's a girl, I'm just imagining it is because it's what I wanted.) I think the real challenge if it's boy will be me thinking that there's NO WAY he can be as sweet and wonderful and perfect as our first, yknow? Whereas a girl is a whole new ball game and I'm unlikely to think down that path. Just so many feelings swirling around. In any case, I should know by this time next week what it is...surreal, eh? Fingers crossed for pink but even more so that I feel at peace with the result, whatever it is.
