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Darn!
I can tell you that you WILL most likely eventually O. Especially since you upped cals/nutrients. You can't get AF unless you O, do it will happen. Hopefully doon. And I really don't think you've ruined your sway, or are swaying blue, but I think you should get pregnant as soon as possible! Maybe BD every 4 or even 3 days so you make sure you have a good opportunity to catch that next egg?
Thank you Maidentomother!
Maybe you're right and I didn't ovulate on Friday. I got a darker test on Saturday as well, but when I was reading on the Site of the brand of my OPK (Sensitest), they wrote that sometimes you get another positive test after ovulation, so I thought it must have been that. But when the temperature raise didn't came the following days (although, like I said, my measurements are not that accurate), I thought that I might not ovulated yet. So I followed the advice that you gave me, BD every 4 days. Last BD was Thursday, so yesterday (Monday) we did another attempt, I was noticing some EWCM, so thought I might be fertile!
I was concerned if I wanted to give it another go, because when I thought that I ovulated on Friday and screwed things up the week prior to this attempt, I had a cheatday last Saturday because feeling so awful about my 'blue swaying' attempt. I had a lot french fries, cake, chocolate. I needed a break after the disappointment. Also I started only exercising on Sunday and Monday (yesterday) again. After the cheatday on Saturday I ate within the borders of the LE diet on Sunday and Monday. Also my weight was again back to 54 kg, I was happy about that. So I decided to give it a go anyway, despite the cheating and not exercising from Thursday until Sunday.... I hope it would be enough. I was seeing some EWCM, so I thought I might be fertile now and didn't want to skip it, than I would have to wait another month...
I had one more point of concern. During BD yesterday, I was planning not to have a big O. I never told HB, that this is important. So he was trying to give me some pleasure too. I was telling him briefly that I didn't want it, that I was having a good time without 'the work of his hands' (omg, sorry TMI....), but he was very pushy about me giving also pleasure. So at one moment I was furious, didn't want him to spoil everything with the attempt. So I got really angry with him, and shouted not too be so pushy. OMG don't know where that came from (yeah I know it's because I wanted to do the best I could with the attempt after al the other swaying factors that were far from optimal, so having a big O was something I wanted to stick to...). Anyway, I noticed when we went on that I was actually stayed really angry with him... And I stayed afterwards, also being fucked up and nervous that I put my Testosteron sky high with this anger, but couldn't do a thing about it.... I thought maybe I could beter have the big O, instead of being so furious in the end.... :-(
I hope it's a good sign that my cycle is being messed up like this, with ovulating so late and that it will be enough to sway Pink in the end...
Today I got ill, with diarrhea and stuff, really can't stand on my leggs. So not capable to go for exercise. I hope I can return to my daily running pattern tomorrow, like I did so devoted most of the weeks....
I'm glad to hear you've been doing E4D. I think your sway continues to sound very strong, the only aspect that potentially concerns me is how anxious/obsessive you seem. I would try to relax a bit, maybe let go of some of those minor sway factors like big O. Just focus on diet, exercise, and E4D and try not to stress about the rest.
It sounds like you needed a cheat day and cheats are REQUIRED so I'm glad you had one! You are doing great hun.
Oh and yes, messed up cycles are pink friendly and nothing is TMI here, we all understand!
Thank you for your quick response and help again Maidentomother, very sweet!! Helps me a lot!! I think you're absolutely right about me being too anxious/obsessive. I find it harder to let go, because my cycle is so unpredictable at the moment and it makes me so uncertain and keeping monitoring. I will do the every 4 day BDing until AF or until I get a raise of temperature, hope that gives me some peace of mind! And will focus on diet and exercise and less on the other factors. Again, thanks a lot! XX
Awww thank you I am very happy to help at all. I have OCD myself so I completely understand. My O has always been unpredictable but is extra so since swaying, I O a bit late normally but even LATER now, it is sooo frustrating so I have a lot of sympathy for you. I've had issues with my partner's BD attitude and performance...I really get where you are coming from! TTC is bad enough, with swaying on top it can seem overwhelming.
Oh and BRAVA for swaying with little ones. I know many pink swayers have a little boy or two while swaying but I don't have children yet so I admire you amazing mamas who accomplish so much!
Hahah, never been official diagnosed with OCD, but could definitely be the case here as well! ;-) That's what probably makes me a boy mom... Also this 'project' of swaying Pink makes it hard not to be too obsessive, because all the things you have to monitor. Don't want to eat too much, need to weight everything, need to get the right amounts of fats, proteins, not to gain too much weight, not to loose too many anymore, want to notice the differences in CM, cervix height, doing all the OPK's, not want to miss the egg... It's something I go to bed with and get up in the morning (Like yeah, really first thing in the morning, just even before getting up -by sticking the thermometer in my behind LOL), so really difficult for me not to get obsessed... So happy and grateful that there are people on this board like you who totally understand!! Also because noticing that the only people I told about swaying (hubby, my sister and a dear friend) lost me like already months ago... Hahah, and I understand that. So very nice and supporting to be surrounded here by people who understand! XXX
You're right, TTC is already obsessive, add on swaying and it is even more obsessive. And you can't 'try' to relax, which is a struggle for people who like to be in control.
Unfortunately many people if not most don't support swaying, I have only one real life friend who knows and is supportive. I got horrible responses from a close friend and my brother (our parents are dead). I am sooo thankful for this site and other swayers like you.
Btw, I didn't mean to imply you actually have OCD, just trying to convey I understand anxiety and obsession very well! You seem within normal range to me, you would probably know if you really had OCD, it's only if it interferes with your ability to function that it's truly a disorder. I think most boy moms are normal, just have OCD 'tendencies'. Basically just a personality quirk, like being introverted or shy etc.
Hi Maidenmother! So painfull to get negative responses to the Genderdreaming! Especially from your brother and best friend! I hesitated to tell another friend, but am glad I decided not to, because already my sister and best friend, although they understand to some extent, think I'm crazy for doing al those swaying tactics. And I need to defense myself all the time for continuing the diet and the exercising. I understand they are worried for me getting to thin, but they know me al long time and know I'm not the person for a eating disorder. This is just something I would want to do for a couple of months for the higher purpose..
I didn't read your post like you were thinking I had OCD, no worries about that! :) But it make me laugh, because I felt myself that I do have OCD tendencies, recognize certain elements for sure! Made me think about a article Atomic wrote about the personalities of boy moms... That was confronting! LOL
you did not harm your sway AT ALL. Everything is fine, I think you are in with as good an attempt as anyone.
It is fine that you ate more while exercising. Exercising and diet work together so you should be fine. If you had stayed so restrictive, you wouldnot have ovulated.