Pbn3 - how far along are you Hun? I still think I'm in a bit of denial. I have confided in 2 close friends now whom I can trust that they will keep it to themselves. One of them is a lovely lady with the same first name as myself, and she is 43 and about 35 weeks pregnant herself. She has two little girls, 4 and 2 years old and a little boy on the way. She had a miscarriage after her girl but an earlier one and then with this pregnancy she had a scare at the 20 week scan when she found out her little boy has a horse-shoe kidney. But other than that, her and her baby are doing really well but she has had to forfeit her home birth as they think baby is measuring close to 10 lb. I'm trying not to stress about finances at the moment as well as I am due to buy one of my elderly dogs his heart meds which is extremely expensive, my daughter has 2 parties to go to this Saturday, I have FS app next week and our 7 yr olds birthday in about 12 days. So I am racking my brain as to what I can sell on eBay or gumtree to give me a bit extra. :( I can't ask my DH as car is at mechanic today for an engine job that is going to cost $1,000 so he is stressed enough about that. We only have the one car, plus the one income as Im SAHM. At times like this though I wish I was out there earning some money. Still, I am lucky that I get a small amount of money from the government when other countries don't have that small luxury. Sorry for rambling on.
Anyway, I'm feeling unusually good otherwise. I'm feeling a bit light-headed at times and getting hungry more often so eat small and often. I just hope and pray toGod that I did enough this time to get a healthy little girl growing in there. I did ok on the diet but I couldn't skip snacking and sometimes had a cup of tea for breakfast on its own or with a piece of toast. So I don't feel great about that and I was a bit of a couch potato. But, ultimately, as long as this one sticks and is healthy that is what matters most. As far as a girl sway goes, I couldn't have done any better. From that horrendous miscarriage last year in August where I'd put my heart and soul into the sway - til 4 months later when I finally was in a good place emotionally to try again and did a more relaxed sway. That will give me peace and at least one day when my daughter is older I can honestly tell her I did everything I could to give her a sister. I feel at peace with it all. And now, the rest is in God's hands, and I just have to pray to him that he sees fit to bless our family with one last beautiful baby to complete it. Xxoo
