Originally Posted by
atomic sagebrush
I only had full-blown GD with DS 3. With DS 4 I was actually ok with another boy but was very bummed to get pg without having a chance to sway the way I wanted to, and also very devastated to have come so close to having my lifelong dream of twins only to have it snatched away at the last minute. Then I had a high-risk pregnancy on top of it, horrible birth, and I am still struggling with negative feelings in general because I feel kinda cursed (I know logically that;s not true but it is how I feel) and also that I am a total f-up who fails at everythign I have ever tried (and I don't want to feel that way but logically I have to admit it is totally true. :/)